wow
i had the best night last night..i went to adams house w/ like everyone...i had very low expectations at first..and omg...we actually cuddled on teh couch, like his arm around him laying on the couch ...we did the whole cute poke thing and like hugged he actually put his arm around me from the back by the end of the night...and the funny thing is this is wat i have wanted for soooo long u have no idea...like im soo surprised..but im also kinda nervous that i am going to be his rebound girl..i hope not..i wonder if we will date...and i wonder wat he is thinking..i hope he doesnt regret anything...i am still in disbelief..and like omg ther is jsut too much..like at one point i was showing him how to slow dance to dont matter i think and that was like the first time we touched in a non poking way..and like one time he fell on his butt when we were outside...and he tied my shoe,twice, hahah..and i skateboarded..when we were inside sitting on the couch it was cute..we were like cuddling up against one another..and he put his arm around me..and we like kinda held hands for alil cause his hands are ginormous compared to mine...i think brenden might have mouthed to him once ask her out...but he didnt...and like we were almost sleeping..i could have stayed like that forever..i seriously could have..and then like at the end we were standing and idk he put his arm around me from the back and i sort of reached up and touched his arm..idk we didnt kiss or anything but i mean there were alot of people ther..but we came close to it..the funny thing was that jake was in teh room the whole time but none of us seemed to care..i put my legs like over his legs...it was amazing and i am still in shock haha..idk wat is going to happen between us..i mean wat happens if we dont hang out now for a long time...like then the likelihood isnt good..and there is still the whole he recently brook up w/ rebecca lee...but i really do like him...and omg freddys parents are sooo funny hahah...i wonder wat adam is feeling...and i hope im not a rebound girl...but he is osoo cute..and ther is this pic of us that was on jills camera that i love sooo much..and ya thats it...im really happy like really happy with life and everything...whenever i think about him i smile...and its comforting...hopefully things will work out and even if they dont im happy to have had last night b/c it made it real for me and made me realzie im not the only one.