eww
its funny i just read my life journal entry from august and realized i havent writen in a long ass time..so i liked adam...and idk it was going good for awhile besides the fact that i was worrying alil bit about him liking alana...find out he wont like me b/c he doesnt want to backstab jake...then last night bryan told me that rebecca lee had only like a cami on and was laying on jakes bed on friday and im like so y does jkae continue to ruin my life and doesnt want me to move on when he all flirting and shit its soo fucked up...and i really let my guard down w/ adam like i was all out there and volunerable b/c i thought that it could actually happpen we could actually work out and be happy but no...like after the last band competition i was freezing so we like cuddled/hugged until my mom got there and that was like the best time ive had in such a long time...and i really thought he liked me too i mean he could have liked alana but at least kinda liked me too...i have no luck...and courtney is gone for a week so i have no one really to talk to...and its like everyone else is so happy but i cant even find a relationship...the junior ring dance was a joke and not that many people came and i had to set up basically by myself...grr..idk its like i dont like jake anymore but i kinda am still confused about him b/c we have soo many loose ends it is so weird how love/hate we are...and i fucking give up...i want to date adam...i dont kno if it is even worth liking him but w/e..ttyl