summer
the first thought im thinking currently is that im scared im never giong to amount to anything..thats my greatest fear..that i will work my ass off and never get anywhere..ill end up alone and scared..i need a confidence booster right about now....so moving onto my live jake and i are officially broken up for real for good forever...he has something going on w/ megan godart but god knows what..i havent spoken to him in a long while and havent seen him since graduation..so i mean its w/e...jesse on the other hand ive been talking to on a semi regular basis..but at the same time its frustrating and confusing b/c i dont wnat to get attached to him..i know he doesnt want a gf so im trying my hardest to not look into things too much..maybe we will just have fun and call it a day..altho im not a person who is all for having just fun...i guess im just having one of those days were u dont feel good enough...and it makes you want to turn to ur security blankets even tho u know u shouldnt..im excited to be going back to mc in almost a month which will be great and fun and exciting and different then boring ct..the only down side is that i will constantly be busy..im scared i wont get a loan next yr and have to go to a state school gross haha..andrew wilson died..its scandalous but basically crystals a bitch...anthonys dating lucy but shes controlling..alis a lesbian..life changes so much in a short time..i feel like this summer all ive done is sat on my ass..but its okay eveyone agree this summer sucks..the anticipation for school to start is at a high..kk peace outtt