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I knew that it was going to fall through...
My brother said that he would let me move in with him as he got an apartment in Tempe, but now that looks like it wont happen. He told me three months ago about the whole thing, how I could jump onboard as a likely canidate, and in turn be able to make it to art college. Well, he called me, but I was too late. I tried to geta job in time, but I was a little late. This just doesnt mean a simple failure, no--this means another year on the edge of the known world...in Goodyear, where I cant seem to spread my wings and fly away from here. I have to come home to the same awful place for another year, it sucks badly.
Living there would mean independance from my parents, and another step foward in my life. Id make it to college, and Id be able to persue a career in artistry or graphic design. Things change...things get better, but the playing field still remains the same. It still...remains the same, and I cant seem to change that...Another year, of being confined to parents rules...another year, of looking at the horizon as the sun steadily sets without a cloud, and still....I will remain here, against all that I want or need.
Well, I suppose that there are some things that I can say that are good out of this. The first would be more time to grow...ya know--settle into my place here, and learn how to be comfortable, and possibly--overcome. The next would be learning from it. I have most of what I needed this year (car, permit, almost a job), now, with these, I'll move foward with them. It wont be all of that bad as last year, things have changed--I wont be inside all day--Ill be out and about, with this job...ill have a life. Heh...
Im writing a story right now! Yes, the people that have known me know that im more of an artist, and less of a writer...But ive been trying to hone my craft of writ, even though its been a little difficult. The first one I worte was easy, it started as something on a whim, and it escaped from there. I titled it "A Nightmare Without Borders." It was easy...probably because the main character is of me at about 4 years from now. It was good to write...I had alot of things to get out on it, but it has to be edited before I can let anyone read it.
My newest story is of my vampire Noah. I guess its hard because Im not putting feeling into the character, so therefore he has no dimention.Its hard...and I cant rush it, or else it will become unstable and fall through. I must be more detailed...Hopefully his story will be posted on deviant art by January of 2005. Wish me luck.
Okees, Im going now! Bye--
My brother said that he would let me move in with him as he got an apartment in Tempe, but now that looks like it wont happen. He told me three months ago about the whole thing, how I could jump onboard as a likely canidate, and in turn be able to make it to art college. Well, he called me, but I was too late. I tried to geta job in time, but I was a little late. This just doesnt mean a simple failure, no--this means another year on the edge of the known world...in Goodyear, where I cant seem to spread my wings and fly away from here. I have to come home to the same awful place for another year, it sucks badly.
Living there would mean independance from my parents, and another step foward in my life. Id make it to college, and Id be able to persue a career in artistry or graphic design. Things change...things get better, but the playing field still remains the same. It still...remains the same, and I cant seem to change that...Another year, of being confined to parents rules...another year, of looking at the horizon as the sun steadily sets without a cloud, and still....I will remain here, against all that I want or need.
Well, I suppose that there are some things that I can say that are good out of this. The first would be more time to grow...ya know--settle into my place here, and learn how to be comfortable, and possibly--overcome. The next would be learning from it. I have most of what I needed this year (car, permit, almost a job), now, with these, I'll move foward with them. It wont be all of that bad as last year, things have changed--I wont be inside all day--Ill be out and about, with this job...ill have a life. Heh...
Im writing a story right now! Yes, the people that have known me know that im more of an artist, and less of a writer...But ive been trying to hone my craft of writ, even though its been a little difficult. The first one I worte was easy, it started as something on a whim, and it escaped from there. I titled it "A Nightmare Without Borders." It was easy...probably because the main character is of me at about 4 years from now. It was good to write...I had alot of things to get out on it, but it has to be edited before I can let anyone read it.
My newest story is of my vampire Noah. I guess its hard because Im not putting feeling into the character, so therefore he has no dimention.Its hard...and I cant rush it, or else it will become unstable and fall through. I must be more detailed...Hopefully his story will be posted on deviant art by January of 2005. Wish me luck.
Okees, Im going now! Bye--