Adapting
I have the worst irritability this morning and I'm wondering if it's because I got up too early or if taking my meds on an empty stomach is finally taking its toll on me.. I don't know. But it's annoying. I feel like I have to think harder just to not make any typing errors and to remember how to spell things.. I'm either losing my mind, or it's just a scatter-brained kind of day.
Ever since I had company over it's like my entire system crashed and burned. A fiery crash, most definitely. Andrew Bird is great.. I digress. I'm wired. But in an exhausting, upsetting way.
The seal broke--the seal in my brain that says "Nonstop eating is STUPID" just kind of exploded and in four days I polished off a pint of Haagen Daaz, scarfed down enough carbs to sustain Michael Phelps for a week, and just stopped giving a shit altogether. It was...scary.
But now I'm leaning more towards my friend's school of thought...change your attitude towards food and instead of endless calorie counting and keeping track obsessively of everything, just eat small amounts of what you want when you actually feel hungry--not at prescribed meal times when you feel forced to eat.
So that's what I'm doing today.
Salted caramel hot chocolate is my breakfast/yummy beverage for the day. I got a venti and I'm really enjoying that decision.
I just
Need to relax. I forgot how to do that. I don't
know if I even remember how to do it now that I realize I need to...
I can pretend though; fake it till I make it. I don't know how to give myself a break.
The last time I gave myself a break, I was shoveling spoonfuls of peanut butter into my mouth.
Need to learn
how to take good breaks
Ever since I had company over it's like my entire system crashed and burned. A fiery crash, most definitely. Andrew Bird is great.. I digress. I'm wired. But in an exhausting, upsetting way.
The seal broke--the seal in my brain that says "Nonstop eating is STUPID" just kind of exploded and in four days I polished off a pint of Haagen Daaz, scarfed down enough carbs to sustain Michael Phelps for a week, and just stopped giving a shit altogether. It was...scary.
But now I'm leaning more towards my friend's school of thought...change your attitude towards food and instead of endless calorie counting and keeping track obsessively of everything, just eat small amounts of what you want when you actually feel hungry--not at prescribed meal times when you feel forced to eat.
So that's what I'm doing today.
Salted caramel hot chocolate is my breakfast/yummy beverage for the day. I got a venti and I'm really enjoying that decision.
I just
Need to relax. I forgot how to do that. I don't
know if I even remember how to do it now that I realize I need to...
I can pretend though; fake it till I make it. I don't know how to give myself a break.
The last time I gave myself a break, I was shoveling spoonfuls of peanut butter into my mouth.
Need to learn
how to take good breaks