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People come and people go. It's the cycle of life. We are saddened by the loss of those people, whether by death or by change of address, or simply a difference in interests. We remember them and miss them on occasion, but life goes on. We welcome the new friendships, the new people in our lives and new interests. With each person, each experience, each lesson in life, we learn, we grow and become better people. Hopefully so, anyway.
I wrote this in my journal about six months ago. I don't even remember what was happening in my life to make me write it, but the words hold true six months later. I've had shit going on in my life that I wouldn't wish on anyone. I've been a wanker and a ponce to all those that I know and love. The people who would have been there for me if I chased them all away. Too many to even try to name. I discovered too late that when you start pushing people away soon enough there is no one left to push around anymore. Can't say I don't deserve it.
She came in to town for the weekend. I know she didn't come to see me, but she's good about letting me see my boy. He's grown so much and I've missed him. The three of us went to the park and for a few moments I felt peace and happiness. I asked her if we could try again. She said she didn't know and then fell silent. I guess that's my answer.
She left the park soon after, but promised I could see Milo again before she left. I didn't know how much I missed holding my little man until he was out of my arms. I called another number, but couldn't get through. With my luck it's been changed and I didn't even know. Tried calling a couple of other people, but same thing there. I miss the way things used to be. I miss the sense of family I had with the cast and crew of Angel. I miss the friendships that I've thrown away. Sometimes I wish that I could turn back time and do things all over again, but deferently.
Marc, if you're still around, I'd like to take you out for a drink or dinner.
Steph, Marsters, sorry for all the shit. Didn't think it would work out for you two, but I'm glad it did.
Hanana Banana, where are you?
David, Andy, lets go out sometime.
Amy, Alykins, the two of you are so beautiful. I wish you all the best always.
Livvie, I'm sorry I wasn't your knight in shining armor after all. Thanks for letting me spend time with Milo, call me so we can set something up, yeah?
Goodbye to the old ones who've left, hello to the new ones who've come in.
I wrote this in my journal about six months ago. I don't even remember what was happening in my life to make me write it, but the words hold true six months later. I've had shit going on in my life that I wouldn't wish on anyone. I've been a wanker and a ponce to all those that I know and love. The people who would have been there for me if I chased them all away. Too many to even try to name. I discovered too late that when you start pushing people away soon enough there is no one left to push around anymore. Can't say I don't deserve it.
She came in to town for the weekend. I know she didn't come to see me, but she's good about letting me see my boy. He's grown so much and I've missed him. The three of us went to the park and for a few moments I felt peace and happiness. I asked her if we could try again. She said she didn't know and then fell silent. I guess that's my answer.
She left the park soon after, but promised I could see Milo again before she left. I didn't know how much I missed holding my little man until he was out of my arms. I called another number, but couldn't get through. With my luck it's been changed and I didn't even know. Tried calling a couple of other people, but same thing there. I miss the way things used to be. I miss the sense of family I had with the cast and crew of Angel. I miss the friendships that I've thrown away. Sometimes I wish that I could turn back time and do things all over again, but deferently.
Marc, if you're still around, I'd like to take you out for a drink or dinner.
Steph, Marsters, sorry for all the shit. Didn't think it would work out for you two, but I'm glad it did.
Hanana Banana, where are you?
David, Andy, lets go out sometime.
Amy, Alykins, the two of you are so beautiful. I wish you all the best always.
Livvie, I'm sorry I wasn't your knight in shining armor after all. Thanks for letting me spend time with Milo, call me so we can set something up, yeah?
Goodbye to the old ones who've left, hello to the new ones who've come in.