Last Friday
Last Friday I had a meeting with my manager. It turned out that he was having doubts. He was not sure whether I wanted him as a manager (Well, I was neither positive, nor negative about it). He was not sure whether he was useful for me (He wasn't useful in my opinion, but then most managers are useless and at least this guy has the potential to become somewhat useful. So I was waiting for him to become useful; I had not given it up yet. I was not considering asking for a different manager (yet)).
I left the meeting/conversation feeling fairly bad and doubting myself a fair bit. I had tried to be completely honest and clear about things, but talking with this guy is really exhausting/time-consuming. Little progress is being made during a conversation. He said I was difficult to manage, because I always prepare very well in advance. There was not much left for him to add. I thought that was a ridiculous line of reasoning. He said he wanted to help me improve my communicative skills by talking with me. I don't see any improvement in my communicative skills as a result. I told him so. I asked him to consider a different approach/method. So at the end of the conversation we could only conclude that I now know that he is having doubts about his "relation" to me. And I hope I did not misunderstand him in this. Every time I talk to him he makes lots of wrong assumptions and jumps to lots of wrong conclusions. I cannot correct them all in the same conversation. That is annoying.
I left the meeting/conversation feeling fairly bad and doubting myself a fair bit. I had tried to be completely honest and clear about things, but talking with this guy is really exhausting/time-consuming. Little progress is being made during a conversation. He said I was difficult to manage, because I always prepare very well in advance. There was not much left for him to add. I thought that was a ridiculous line of reasoning. He said he wanted to help me improve my communicative skills by talking with me. I don't see any improvement in my communicative skills as a result. I told him so. I asked him to consider a different approach/method. So at the end of the conversation we could only conclude that I now know that he is having doubts about his "relation" to me. And I hope I did not misunderstand him in this. Every time I talk to him he makes lots of wrong assumptions and jumps to lots of wrong conclusions. I cannot correct them all in the same conversation. That is annoying.