So So
I feel happy, but there's another side of me that is anxious, negative, worried, stressed out. I can't wait to reach the time in my life when I will be at peace with a lot of things. I just need to let go of things that bother me and work hard to fix the things that I can. I know the source of a lot of my problems. I worry about the lives of other people, too. It's a shame how negative I can be. I need to smile more often and laugh and try to be easy going like other people I know, but it's hard. I'm really thankful for the good things in my life and I'm glad to be alive. :-D
Midterms coming up this week. I want to get at least a "C" in music history - it's so much information to study, and one guy said that this is his 3rd time taking the class. :-O Another guy, according to my dad, has taken it like 5 times or so. :-( So you see why I'm afraid of failure? University life has more pressure to be "perfect." My music professors criticize even the higher level music students who play well according to my ears. I want to perform the viola in front of the music faculty sometime soon so that I won't feel so nervous when I have to play for them at the end of the quarter. And these strict professors are actually nice outside of class. XD I just need to get on their good side. :-P
Lately I've been really into kpop and manga. <3 Money that should have been saved for lunch money was used to buy kpop. XD I've been reading One Piece (last finished vol. 50 recently) and Stepping on Roses. Soon I'll continue reading Ultra Maniac and Happy Cafe. Manga is so much fun to read and takes my mind off of my problems temporarily. I love it. <3 You know who I miss? Roy Mustang. I haven't read Fullmetal Alchemist in a while. :-/ If I get my studying/homework done today, I want to watch Black Butler soon. <3 I miss Sebastian, too, and I'm looking forward to season 2! Almost done with season 1!
Midterms coming up this week. I want to get at least a "C" in music history - it's so much information to study, and one guy said that this is his 3rd time taking the class. :-O Another guy, according to my dad, has taken it like 5 times or so. :-( So you see why I'm afraid of failure? University life has more pressure to be "perfect." My music professors criticize even the higher level music students who play well according to my ears. I want to perform the viola in front of the music faculty sometime soon so that I won't feel so nervous when I have to play for them at the end of the quarter. And these strict professors are actually nice outside of class. XD I just need to get on their good side. :-P
Lately I've been really into kpop and manga. <3 Money that should have been saved for lunch money was used to buy kpop. XD I've been reading One Piece (last finished vol. 50 recently) and Stepping on Roses. Soon I'll continue reading Ultra Maniac and Happy Cafe. Manga is so much fun to read and takes my mind off of my problems temporarily. I love it. <3 You know who I miss? Roy Mustang. I haven't read Fullmetal Alchemist in a while. :-/ If I get my studying/homework done today, I want to watch Black Butler soon. <3 I miss Sebastian, too, and I'm looking forward to season 2! Almost done with season 1!