life taught me to die... it's not hard to fall when you float like a cannonball
spinning, spirelling, tossing, turning, i can't seem to be still.... i don't know up from down but i have a sneaking suspition i'm headed down.. everytime it's different, but always the same... no one ever stays the same.. but yet i'm always stuck at the same... i don't know what to do or where to go, but i know that here is not the place... but yet i have to idea where the right place is... so i'll just leave like everytime before... cause it's really all i'm good at...i'm screaming in this dream just wanting to be heard but noone hears me so i pinch myself to wake up but can't.. cause i realze this isn't a dream.. i'm living this nightmare of a life and there is no where to escape... so i just sit and all i have is hope that one day all this will change and my nightmares will go away......