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Last night I could not sleep at all.
I laid in bed for ten minutes singing rocket man in my head and decided it was a hopeless cause.
So then this happened
I get online because I can’t sleep. I IM Jordan. He said zach was over and they were doing stuff, but I just wanted to send him something. So I sent it
Sugarbabie888 (12:07:48 AM): okay, night Jord <3
jord and car ass (12:07:57 AM): night ali!
jord and car ass (12:07:58 AM): sweet dreams
Sugarbabie888 (12:08:04 AM): (again)
Sugarbabie888 (12:08:44 AM): ohh
Sugarbabie888 (12:08:52 AM): and before I go to bed, I’ve been wanting to ask.. . what is your away message talking about?
jord and car ass (12:09:04 AM): dude
jord and car ass (12:09:07 AM): soccer
jord and car ass (12:09:08 AM): night
jord and car ass (12:09:09 AM): homework
Sugarbabie888 (12:09:20 AM): .
Sugarbabie888 (12:09:35 AM): fuck you
jord and car ass (12:09:43 AM): goodnight ali
Sugarbabie888 (12:10:18 AM): I guess I will probably be able to sleep now that I am not randomly happy
Sugarbabie888 (12:10:21 AM): so thanks for that
jord and car ass (12:10:59 AM): Ali
Auto response from Sugarbabie888 (12:10:59 AM): bed.
jord and car ass (12:11:02 AM): sigh
jord and car ass (12:11:05 AM): bye
What a fucking prick face. ANY of my friends who respected me could have taken 30 seconds out of their time to answer me. . . or been like “Ali. . .stop being retarded and go to bed ” The fact that he is a horrible person to me on top of the fact that I constantly have this sinking feeling that he is lying to me made for a a wonderful night’sleep. I lay in bed thinking that he was online, and didn’t want to talk to me. It is just little things that get me going. Like, he said zach was over, but zach was online, and then 3 minutes later his away message changed to shower. . . .so what the fuck. Anyways, that’s only half of the reason I didn’t really sleep last night.
Last night everything hit me.
And it was this stupid conversation:
Sugarbabie888: brb
jord and car ass: ...
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Auto response from Sugarbabie888: ;-)
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jord and car ass: ...
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Auto response from Sugarbabie888: :-(
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jord and car ass: shoulda said you had to go...
jord and car ass: so i didn't sit aroun my laptop
Holy shit. I am such a fucking bitch. I would probably cry if Jordan did that to me now. . . said brb and then didn’t come back for an hour. So the fact that I am a heartless bitch was kind of reiterated. And yeah, it made me cry. I cried for Jordan and not myself and it actually felt pretty good considering I was supposed to be mad and I could still feel miserable for him. It was my first non-selfish cry in a while. It also kind of hit me that I don’t even deserve him to talk to me now. I drained him for all that he was worth this year.
So yeah, I fell asleep sometime around two. Liz’s door kept opening and closing randomly and all I could think about were poltergeists. I will probably add more to this later. And ohh, PS. This made me sad.
jord and car ass: are you still going otwant to visit me
jord and car ass: when oyu get out of school
Sugarbabie888: I want to
Sugarbabie888: I will
jord and car ass: even if we haven't talked?
jord and car ass: in 2 months
Sugarbabie888: yeah, I promise
I laid in bed for ten minutes singing rocket man in my head and decided it was a hopeless cause.
So then this happened
I get online because I can’t sleep. I IM Jordan. He said zach was over and they were doing stuff, but I just wanted to send him something. So I sent it
Sugarbabie888 (12:07:48 AM): okay, night Jord <3
jord and car ass (12:07:57 AM): night ali!
jord and car ass (12:07:58 AM): sweet dreams
Sugarbabie888 (12:08:04 AM): (again)
Sugarbabie888 (12:08:44 AM): ohh
Sugarbabie888 (12:08:52 AM): and before I go to bed, I’ve been wanting to ask.. . what is your away message talking about?
jord and car ass (12:09:04 AM): dude
jord and car ass (12:09:07 AM): soccer
jord and car ass (12:09:08 AM): night
jord and car ass (12:09:09 AM): homework
Sugarbabie888 (12:09:20 AM): .
Sugarbabie888 (12:09:35 AM): fuck you
jord and car ass (12:09:43 AM): goodnight ali
Sugarbabie888 (12:10:18 AM): I guess I will probably be able to sleep now that I am not randomly happy
Sugarbabie888 (12:10:21 AM): so thanks for that
jord and car ass (12:10:59 AM): Ali
Auto response from Sugarbabie888 (12:10:59 AM): bed.
jord and car ass (12:11:02 AM): sigh
jord and car ass (12:11:05 AM): bye
What a fucking prick face. ANY of my friends who respected me could have taken 30 seconds out of their time to answer me. . . or been like “Ali. . .stop being retarded and go to bed ” The fact that he is a horrible person to me on top of the fact that I constantly have this sinking feeling that he is lying to me made for a a wonderful night’sleep. I lay in bed thinking that he was online, and didn’t want to talk to me. It is just little things that get me going. Like, he said zach was over, but zach was online, and then 3 minutes later his away message changed to shower. . . .so what the fuck. Anyways, that’s only half of the reason I didn’t really sleep last night.
Last night everything hit me.
And it was this stupid conversation:
Sugarbabie888: brb
jord and car ass: ...
________________________________________
Auto response from Sugarbabie888: ;-)
________________________________________
jord and car ass: ...
________________________________________
Auto response from Sugarbabie888: :-(
________________________________________
jord and car ass: shoulda said you had to go...
jord and car ass: so i didn't sit aroun my laptop
Holy shit. I am such a fucking bitch. I would probably cry if Jordan did that to me now. . . said brb and then didn’t come back for an hour. So the fact that I am a heartless bitch was kind of reiterated. And yeah, it made me cry. I cried for Jordan and not myself and it actually felt pretty good considering I was supposed to be mad and I could still feel miserable for him. It was my first non-selfish cry in a while. It also kind of hit me that I don’t even deserve him to talk to me now. I drained him for all that he was worth this year.
So yeah, I fell asleep sometime around two. Liz’s door kept opening and closing randomly and all I could think about were poltergeists. I will probably add more to this later. And ohh, PS. This made me sad.
jord and car ass: are you still going otwant to visit me
jord and car ass: when oyu get out of school
Sugarbabie888: I want to
Sugarbabie888: I will
jord and car ass: even if we haven't talked?
jord and car ass: in 2 months
Sugarbabie888: yeah, I promise