Finding a new normal...
I just got off the exercise bike for the night - Pat has me working out on it every day to help me work out some stress and try to get some of this weight off. (I say Pat has me, but I'm a willing participant!) I called about counseling, but they said it would be a week before they would call me back (although I think it has been a week, so I should give them a call). I feel better the past week or so - I haven't been crying all day every day or bursting into tears every time I hear the word "mom." Life is still hard, but maybe a little easier. We have to start cleaning out the house so we can put it up for sale, and I just dread having to get rid of any of their things - if I was independently wealthy, I would just keep the house for a few years as a testament to their lives and what wonderful people they were, you know? (In a dream world, they would still be alive and living in their little house, happy as clams.)
Work has been going better - I'm more able to focus and get things done and I guess I'm going to be transferred to a different department for awhile while some people are on leave, which makes me very happy. I don't get along with my supervisor, so a move away from her would be great. I don't know why we don't get along - I usually try to get along with everyone, but she and I are just like oil and water.
On the entertainment front I finished the first two Hunger Games books, which were fantastic, and now I'm procrastinating on the third, maybe because I don't want it to end, I don't know. I quit in the middle to read "Crank" which was good, but kind of depressing (it's about meth addiction) and now "Identical" by the same author, which is also kind of depressing, also about addiction and sexual abuse. I've been watching Sanctuary on Netflix while I bike and I like it so far - it has a Stargate/X-files type of feel to it. I just found out they canceled Stargate Universe, which I liked, although I do have to agree it didn't have the charm of Stargate SG-1. Atlantis wasn't really my cup of tea, but I understand it had its appeal, and Universe was vastly different from that. I would have liked to see it progress further in the story though, so I'm sad to see it end.
Work has been going better - I'm more able to focus and get things done and I guess I'm going to be transferred to a different department for awhile while some people are on leave, which makes me very happy. I don't get along with my supervisor, so a move away from her would be great. I don't know why we don't get along - I usually try to get along with everyone, but she and I are just like oil and water.
On the entertainment front I finished the first two Hunger Games books, which were fantastic, and now I'm procrastinating on the third, maybe because I don't want it to end, I don't know. I quit in the middle to read "Crank" which was good, but kind of depressing (it's about meth addiction) and now "Identical" by the same author, which is also kind of depressing, also about addiction and sexual abuse. I've been watching Sanctuary on Netflix while I bike and I like it so far - it has a Stargate/X-files type of feel to it. I just found out they canceled Stargate Universe, which I liked, although I do have to agree it didn't have the charm of Stargate SG-1. Atlantis wasn't really my cup of tea, but I understand it had its appeal, and Universe was vastly different from that. I would have liked to see it progress further in the story though, so I'm sad to see it end.