but don't you see my self perception is the snake, this not born of one shotgun, it's born of childhood self hatred of course you couldn't see me, to me. i couldn't understand it from the first.
i'm the broken puppet i'm the snake i'm the ugly most disgusting in stolen words and phrases disjointed floppy patterns rooted in a rotted mind who could stand such a thing?
how you see me, how others say they see me, how my family sees me, this i do not understand at all
so when not replied i shut up. i expect this but i find i bring it about as a self fulfilling prophesy i force others to dislike me as reflex because they surely must hate me and see into me where i am the great ugly
it's true i don't see can't see blinded by strobes the dentist's light shining on my teeth maybe i never saw from the outset they give you sunglasses when you sit in the swivly chair
i don't see and i couldn't see but i am thankful that you have julesraven that you have her, for I failed
You did not fail me, we failed each other. It's very obvious now, that our neurosis have the potential to sync up in a way that will lead us both to silence
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I was thinking the same thing- A Poets Affair To Remember god, I'm so happy (words and words and words! yours and mine together in rhythm beat rap god I love your rap and the beat you carry in your head) ((do you know, I have friends and acquaintances who are good to me, but there's always a but) INSPIRATION) so hard to come by it's like chemistry, but better creation not of sex and babies, but of words that are just as temporal but still more eternal thank you for being what I didn't have the guts for a duo-decka world needs a duo
you know, for some reason, as intimate as this thread is-- I never thought of locking it down. as though this should be out in the open, let them be voyeurs, I don't care. I used to be so afraid of people seeing my mental masturbation, but it seems I've gotten addicted to it now. you're perfect. it works only in public, nude. let's not make it separate, for now. we can change it whenever we wants. i used to not know how people could find public exposure hot. I think I get it (a little little) now
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Thank you for all these. I am listening.
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of course you couldn't see me, to me. i couldn't understand it from the first.
i'm the broken puppet
i'm the snake
i'm the ugly most disgusting in stolen words
and phrases disjointed floppy patterns rooted in a rotted mind who could stand such a thing?
how you see me, how others say they see me, how my family sees me, this i do not understand at all
so when not replied i shut up. i expect this but i find i bring it about as a self fulfilling prophesy i force others to dislike me as reflex because they surely must hate me and see into me where i am the great ugly
the one who understand this most, is julesraven.
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shit i cry and won't be getting no eggnog
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can't see blinded by strobes
the dentist's light shining on my teeth
maybe i never saw from the outset
they give you sunglasses when you sit in the swivly chair
i don't see
and i couldn't see
but i am thankful that you have julesraven
that you have her, for I failed
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god, I'm so happy (words and words and words! yours and mine together in rhythm beat rap
god I love your rap and the beat you carry in your head)
((do you know, I have friends and acquaintances who are good to me, but there's always a but) INSPIRATION) so hard to come by
it's like chemistry, but better
creation not of sex and babies, but of words that are just as temporal but still more eternal
thank you for being what I didn't have the guts for
a duo-decka world needs a duo
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best beloveds
when i do this thing
i didn't know i did it to you too
i thought you did it to me
fuck me
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faults, how thoughtless and foolish I have been
my stolen words and hollow thoughts
i'm selfish, and the only thing i can think is
so glad to hear your voice again
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let's not make it separate, for now. we can change it whenever we wants. i used to not know how people could find public exposure hot. I think I get it (a little little) now
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