stuff i feel like writting about
So the last couple of days I have really been trying to manifest a house for me to live in. I've finally quit clutching on to finding something, and just putting it in the hands of god (to put it in laymen terms). I have a drawing of what I want the house to be, and I have a list of expectations for it. It will be mine, and it will come when It is suppose to. I am confident of that. I also decided to stop worrying about all the things I want to do with the small savings I have and just focus on getting myself grounded. I need to be stabilized. I want to have somewhere to plant my feet and grow for a while. That's what feels right for me. I have learned a lot in this last month about who and what I can tolerate, who and what sets me back, and who and what stunts my personal growth/power. I have learned even more about myself and what I can create. I am a really fucking amazing person, I almost cant believe how great I can be, but I have witnessed it so I am aware. This is obviously my own perspective, but I think I could make a big difference in peoples lives if they want my help. but it is up to them, i wont push anyone anymore. But I will speak my mind and I will call you out when you are obviously ignoring your intuition. The voice deep down, knows what you really want. We're just so bombarded by our surrounding (people, jobs, friends, family, et al) that we have trouble listening to ourselves. Pleasing others is not going to make me feel like i am fulfilled when I have 10 minutes left to live. Laying on my deathbed I know that I would be happier to help someone in need rather than feeding someone's fears and insecurities. It's just that kind of love, it's unconditional. and It has no boundaries, no judgments, no special criteria, and it certainly is not some power struggle game show hootenanny.
All right, So now I'm just ranting. I can do it so well when I find some peace. It's easy to share when it feels good and you want others to feel it. I am glad I am me, this crazy, freakish, hippie, healthy, person I am. I am beautiful, strong, empathetic, creative, honest, and aware of something more special and fulfilling than the dollar, or the degree, or whatever it may be that holds one from those childhood dreams. children are the greatest teachers, they have imagination and lucky them for being forgiven when they act like kids. If only we could all be forgiven for acting like kids. There's freedom in playtime. I am more happy when I am having fun. Where's the fun in your life?
All right, So now I'm just ranting. I can do it so well when I find some peace. It's easy to share when it feels good and you want others to feel it. I am glad I am me, this crazy, freakish, hippie, healthy, person I am. I am beautiful, strong, empathetic, creative, honest, and aware of something more special and fulfilling than the dollar, or the degree, or whatever it may be that holds one from those childhood dreams. children are the greatest teachers, they have imagination and lucky them for being forgiven when they act like kids. If only we could all be forgiven for acting like kids. There's freedom in playtime. I am more happy when I am having fun. Where's the fun in your life?