Hello, my name is Sarah.
Originally written July 26, 2008
It is 3 am, and I am finally settling in after driving cross country twice within two weeks. For the first time in my life, I feel like I actually KNOW what I am going to do with myself... and I have no doubts about it.
This trip really helped me find myself, and also gave me the courage to take the steps needed to pursue these plans of mine. I have always known what makes me happy, but was scared to make any commitments. There is something that screams "you're going to be tied to one place for x amount of time!" when I think of school and a career path. I didn't want to start anything here, in NH, when I was unsure if this is the place I wanted to be at. What if other, better opportunities arose? Would I be a quitter and drop what I was doing to take the new path? Or give up that new opportunity to continue doing the same old thing I have been?
If I was to choose the latter, I would be left with that "what if?" feeling. A feeling I refuse to feel in my lifetime. I have started many things, and it disappoints me I have yet to finish any of them. On the other hand, by dipping my hand into everything, I have been able to experience a variety of life styles. My mind has been awakened to the different worlds within this world.
Before this trip, I was trying to find every excuse to get out of New Hampshire. I felt as though I would be happier anywhere but here. I also thought I would have better success elsewhere. Little did I know, of just how much I have already made for myself here.
I have a nice, very affordable apartment. I can have my cats here, and I couldn't ask for a cooler/cleaner roommate. I have a job that allows me to make my own schedule, while having a pretty nice pay rate as well. I have my pseudo family, and friends. All my acting networks are in the New England area (so far), and I have paying acting gigs in MA. New Hampshire also has the lowest crime rate, and no general sales tax, or personal state income tax.
In my travels, I have also found how laid back New Hampshire is. I believe, out of most of the states in the U.S. we really do live by our motto "Live free or die".
Anyways, before I start trailing off subject here... Why would I want to leave this foundation I have built? Answer is, I don't! This state is beautiful, easy going, and I have everything I need right here.
It is 3 am, and I am finally settling in after driving cross country twice within two weeks. For the first time in my life, I feel like I actually KNOW what I am going to do with myself... and I have no doubts about it.
This trip really helped me find myself, and also gave me the courage to take the steps needed to pursue these plans of mine. I have always known what makes me happy, but was scared to make any commitments. There is something that screams "you're going to be tied to one place for x amount of time!" when I think of school and a career path. I didn't want to start anything here, in NH, when I was unsure if this is the place I wanted to be at. What if other, better opportunities arose? Would I be a quitter and drop what I was doing to take the new path? Or give up that new opportunity to continue doing the same old thing I have been?
If I was to choose the latter, I would be left with that "what if?" feeling. A feeling I refuse to feel in my lifetime. I have started many things, and it disappoints me I have yet to finish any of them. On the other hand, by dipping my hand into everything, I have been able to experience a variety of life styles. My mind has been awakened to the different worlds within this world.
Before this trip, I was trying to find every excuse to get out of New Hampshire. I felt as though I would be happier anywhere but here. I also thought I would have better success elsewhere. Little did I know, of just how much I have already made for myself here.
I have a nice, very affordable apartment. I can have my cats here, and I couldn't ask for a cooler/cleaner roommate. I have a job that allows me to make my own schedule, while having a pretty nice pay rate as well. I have my pseudo family, and friends. All my acting networks are in the New England area (so far), and I have paying acting gigs in MA. New Hampshire also has the lowest crime rate, and no general sales tax, or personal state income tax.
In my travels, I have also found how laid back New Hampshire is. I believe, out of most of the states in the U.S. we really do live by our motto "Live free or die".
Anyways, before I start trailing off subject here... Why would I want to leave this foundation I have built? Answer is, I don't! This state is beautiful, easy going, and I have everything I need right here.