oo hey.. an update. groovy.
i've had a revelation.
an epiphany... if you will.
something so startling that i didnt believe it myself, till i actually thought about it.
yes, indeed i have a problem.
not a normal problem, no.. why would it be easy? psssh.. it's actually quite complicated.
you see.. i think i have, what i can best discribe as... entertainment deprived alcoholism.
meaning, i am incredibly bored. and when i am incredibly bored... a wonderful russian man comes to the rescue with his strange fermented potato drink. which aint cool.
i finished up working on a little piece that i've been doing for the past week, week and a half, straight (even when i went to jim's i worked on it at some point, using his keyboard, scribbling notes and shit, or just sounding it out in my head.. or at one point waking up at 3:30 and actualling singing it to myself.... yeah.. shut up.) anyway. regardless, dont ask to hear it. this piece of music i did was just something that had been stuck in my head for the past few months (since march i believe) and i finally got the proper equipment to get it the fuck out. hence me waking up at 4 am and working at my computer on it till 2 am, like some crazed music making mad scientiest dude.
im off track.
i finished this piece of music, and now i've noticed i have nothing to do. no inclination to play daoc or eq anymore really.. that and i'm not exactly able to for more than 20 minutes on this horribly gimped internet connection that i have here in canada.
since i noticed this, i've also noticed a few more things.. im actually doing other stuff for once, which is cool. but i find that i have lulls in the day, which i know is normal for everyone.. but not everyone sleeps 10 feet away from a bar with over 40 gallons of alcoholic goodness on it's shelves. which is not cool. i've gone through the little 200 ml of smirnoff and about 3/4 of a 26er of smirnoff in the past..oh... 2 days. not straight of course, but im running out of stuff to mix with it. i've even gone so far as to have it with sprite... which is NOT COOL. hrm.. might be better if in fact it was cool. or very cold if that doesnt do .. fuck! see!? alcohol alcohol alcohol.
i need something to do.
sweet gawd.... how am i gonna manage while im in recovery and post surgically?
sigh.
You Are Scary
You even scare scary people sometimes!
How scary are you?
"may the eternal darkness of the abyss enrapture and enshroud you in its infernal sickly sweet embrace"
what the fuck?!?!
THATS WHAT IM TALKIN ABOUT! shit yeah, ladies. PHENOMINAL COSMIC POWERS!!! and a kickass chair too!!
an epiphany... if you will.
something so startling that i didnt believe it myself, till i actually thought about it.
yes, indeed i have a problem.
not a normal problem, no.. why would it be easy? psssh.. it's actually quite complicated.
you see.. i think i have, what i can best discribe as... entertainment deprived alcoholism.
meaning, i am incredibly bored. and when i am incredibly bored... a wonderful russian man comes to the rescue with his strange fermented potato drink. which aint cool.
i finished up working on a little piece that i've been doing for the past week, week and a half, straight (even when i went to jim's i worked on it at some point, using his keyboard, scribbling notes and shit, or just sounding it out in my head.. or at one point waking up at 3:30 and actualling singing it to myself.... yeah.. shut up.) anyway. regardless, dont ask to hear it. this piece of music i did was just something that had been stuck in my head for the past few months (since march i believe) and i finally got the proper equipment to get it the fuck out. hence me waking up at 4 am and working at my computer on it till 2 am, like some crazed music making mad scientiest dude.
im off track.
i finished this piece of music, and now i've noticed i have nothing to do. no inclination to play daoc or eq anymore really.. that and i'm not exactly able to for more than 20 minutes on this horribly gimped internet connection that i have here in canada.
since i noticed this, i've also noticed a few more things.. im actually doing other stuff for once, which is cool. but i find that i have lulls in the day, which i know is normal for everyone.. but not everyone sleeps 10 feet away from a bar with over 40 gallons of alcoholic goodness on it's shelves. which is not cool. i've gone through the little 200 ml of smirnoff and about 3/4 of a 26er of smirnoff in the past..oh... 2 days. not straight of course, but im running out of stuff to mix with it. i've even gone so far as to have it with sprite... which is NOT COOL. hrm.. might be better if in fact it was cool. or very cold if that doesnt do .. fuck! see!? alcohol alcohol alcohol.
i need something to do.
sweet gawd.... how am i gonna manage while im in recovery and post surgically?
sigh.
You Are Scary
You even scare scary people sometimes!
How scary are you?
"may the eternal darkness of the abyss enrapture and enshroud you in its infernal sickly sweet embrace"
what the fuck?!?!
THATS WHAT IM TALKIN ABOUT! shit yeah, ladies. PHENOMINAL COSMIC POWERS!!! and a kickass chair too!!