p.s. i'm sorry
in the words of an amazing friend of mine: "i'm trying to keep you alive and you just don't care."
i'm sorry. to everyone. he was right...it seems like that and i'm sorry. i can't begin to explain how sorry i am and if you're reading this, i'm sorry that you ave to erad this because it means i'm not there to tell you so in person.
i'm okay. i miss everyone at school and i still can't believe that this happened. it's like a dream that i'm expecting to wake up from and every day i just wake up to the same thing. i can't believe it. i don't want to believe it. but i have to.
i found my ring today that jessica had put into an envelope and it made me cry...i'm gonna miss all the good times i had with all the girls in the dorm and my friends at school, and i'm gonna miss making new memories with them.
i read a book and i hated it. it reminde dme of things and i can't help but be sad.
in the long run, however, i'm okay. i'm fine.
i had a dream last night and it made me sad when i woke up. i've decided that i'm gonna marry him some day, whether or not he knows it :)
i think it's time, to sober up, and live.
-- r
blindside - Across Waters Again
Waiting
How can someone so close
Be allowed to be so far away
Your red leaves fall in the evening
While I'm waking up to smog these days
You know how I love when the sun touch my skin
But I still miss your thoughts on rain
So come and save me over the thin phoneline
Just one of those days
Where you learn to fly
With broken wings
My thoughts are on an airplane home
While the feet are still on the ground
Just one of those days
Where you learn to fly
With broken wings
But you were never late
To pick up the phone and call
Now it's fall and I miss
Making love in the Sunday afternoon sunlight
Wednesday, Thursday
One down, billions to go
With glasses foggy you're losing sight
So come and I'll save you over this thin phoneline
Just one of those days
Where you learn to fly
With broken wings
My thoughts are on an airplane home
While the feet are still on the ground
Just one of those days
Where you learn to fly
With broken wings