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Its time for another random update.
I've been thinking a lot more about my life and what I want to do with it, and I just keep coming to the same conclusion as when I was in high school. I want to be a spiritual leader, but unfortunately American society doesn't really have room for those ideals, especially in the way i want. Throughout human history the people who've most inspired me are the sages, philosophers and mystics. I feel that something along these lines, like the general shaman, would be the best way for me to learn about the world, help others to better understand themselves and their surroundings, and to create as my muse desires.
What I would love most out of life is to get paid to just research and create. I'm at a point in my life where I don't know enough but society says that I have to hunker down and get a 9-5 and pay my taxes. I don't ever want to do that really, but at this point I feel that my education is just getting started. A funny outlook on life when just a few years ago I was worrying about the fact that I was in school for 17 years.
Some topics i need to know more about before I feel i can move on with my life:
The Bible: I've gone over all of it between classes, church(when i went) and my own reading, but I've never actually read it cover to cover. Plus there are all of those studies on different aspects of it that so interest me.
Religions overall: I know next to nothing about Islam, and only slightly more about the Eastern religions, plus there are all of the older or smaller ones all over the world that I only know in passing.
Psychology: This really goes hand in hand with religion, and even philosophy. I've taken two college level classes on the subject, but they were so general that I feel like i didn't really learn anything of substance. This is something i need to change.
Philosophy: I have a really difficult relationship with philosophy. Poor testing skills, followed my laziness, caused me to take 101 three times, followed by Medieval Philosophy. All I got out of those classes was an intense hatred for Plato and Aristotle, which all of those classes focused on way too much. It wasn't until my final semester that I took a philosophy class, Cultural Resistance, that I finally found an interesting aspect of the science. I also really need to look into the philosophies of other cultures, though those tend to be mixed with religions.
Proxemics: The study of how people interact with each other and their environment. This is two-fold. It has been something that has always interested me to begin with, plus it is a perfect foundation for urban planning, which I am applying for.
Also on my list of things to learn are in the creative fields.
I need to work on my drawing skills over all, though that will take a lot of work since I am rarely inspired to draw anymore.
Music is my life man! well, not really, but it has been what my muse wants to do for a while now. Not that I've been able to do much, seeing as I only have a guitar, an instrument that is hard for me to get into because I don't want to just learn a few chords to play pop hits with, but learn how to make music of any style that strikes my fancy.
My storyboarding is nonexistent at the moment. Not that work isn't being done, just that I need a lot of background information before I can start writing a plot. I have the psychological aspects of my main characters down, but I need a fully functioning world for them act it. I now fully understand J.R. Tolkien and why those stupid Lord of the Rings books are full of way too much information about trees and songs.
I also need to work on my movie ideas. I have a big one in the works with some friends, as well as a couple of my own ideas, but again they all seem to be a pre-planning stages.
This all boils down to a lot of time and energy that I don't have complete control over, which sucks. I'll figure something out though, and I'm sure i'll update here again when the mood strikes me.
I've been thinking a lot more about my life and what I want to do with it, and I just keep coming to the same conclusion as when I was in high school. I want to be a spiritual leader, but unfortunately American society doesn't really have room for those ideals, especially in the way i want. Throughout human history the people who've most inspired me are the sages, philosophers and mystics. I feel that something along these lines, like the general shaman, would be the best way for me to learn about the world, help others to better understand themselves and their surroundings, and to create as my muse desires.
What I would love most out of life is to get paid to just research and create. I'm at a point in my life where I don't know enough but society says that I have to hunker down and get a 9-5 and pay my taxes. I don't ever want to do that really, but at this point I feel that my education is just getting started. A funny outlook on life when just a few years ago I was worrying about the fact that I was in school for 17 years.
Some topics i need to know more about before I feel i can move on with my life:
The Bible: I've gone over all of it between classes, church(when i went) and my own reading, but I've never actually read it cover to cover. Plus there are all of those studies on different aspects of it that so interest me.
Religions overall: I know next to nothing about Islam, and only slightly more about the Eastern religions, plus there are all of the older or smaller ones all over the world that I only know in passing.
Psychology: This really goes hand in hand with religion, and even philosophy. I've taken two college level classes on the subject, but they were so general that I feel like i didn't really learn anything of substance. This is something i need to change.
Philosophy: I have a really difficult relationship with philosophy. Poor testing skills, followed my laziness, caused me to take 101 three times, followed by Medieval Philosophy. All I got out of those classes was an intense hatred for Plato and Aristotle, which all of those classes focused on way too much. It wasn't until my final semester that I took a philosophy class, Cultural Resistance, that I finally found an interesting aspect of the science. I also really need to look into the philosophies of other cultures, though those tend to be mixed with religions.
Proxemics: The study of how people interact with each other and their environment. This is two-fold. It has been something that has always interested me to begin with, plus it is a perfect foundation for urban planning, which I am applying for.
Also on my list of things to learn are in the creative fields.
I need to work on my drawing skills over all, though that will take a lot of work since I am rarely inspired to draw anymore.
Music is my life man! well, not really, but it has been what my muse wants to do for a while now. Not that I've been able to do much, seeing as I only have a guitar, an instrument that is hard for me to get into because I don't want to just learn a few chords to play pop hits with, but learn how to make music of any style that strikes my fancy.
My storyboarding is nonexistent at the moment. Not that work isn't being done, just that I need a lot of background information before I can start writing a plot. I have the psychological aspects of my main characters down, but I need a fully functioning world for them act it. I now fully understand J.R. Tolkien and why those stupid Lord of the Rings books are full of way too much information about trees and songs.
I also need to work on my movie ideas. I have a big one in the works with some friends, as well as a couple of my own ideas, but again they all seem to be a pre-planning stages.
This all boils down to a lot of time and energy that I don't have complete control over, which sucks. I'll figure something out though, and I'm sure i'll update here again when the mood strikes me.