What is the next step?

[aldric_stien]

This short little entry is just to show anyone who still reads this that I am indeed alive. This semester ended and it was a failure, but not in the regard that I feel I could have done better, but instead because I feel like it was a waste of my time and energy for a "positive" result that I have no interest in achieving. Sadly though, the vague idea of what I want to do in my life is completely hindered by my position in life. And yes, overall I am the kind of person who would just go along passively with natural flow of the world, but I am getting to a point in which I don't think I can sit idly by in a stagnant pool as nothing changes the way it should, or at least in a way that allows me to intellectually grow and do something fulfilling in my life. I really need time by myself in order to figure all of this out, but it doesn't look like I could just leave the world behind for a while in order to do that.

I'll update more once I feel I understand enough to make my own comments, whenever that may be.