Float On
I made the mistake of rewatching the BtVS Season 2 finale the other day, forgetting how depressing it is. As a result it put me in a kinda sad mood... not really depressed, just sorta sad... and a tad lonely (which part is silly since I've seen friends basically every day since I got home). Listening to the soundtrack from said episode probably didn't help things. One thing I can say is that I'm more than ready to get back to Skidmore and start the semester (even though I still have work to do on MEM III). I miss my Skidmore friends (even though I still at times feel like I don't quite belong in any of the various Skidmore groups of friends), I miss campus, I miss the dorms... and I'm ready to start the next year. Thank god Camp CAEN is starting next week. I'll need the distraction and that should feel sufficiently like college to keep me happy.
On another note I went out to get the paper this morning and discovered a deer munching on an apple tree not 10 feet from my door. The deer eyed me warily when I came out, but when I didn't show an interest in it other than sorta calmly talking at it it ignored me. That is one thing I love about Bloomington, where else can you go out of your front door into suburbia (of a sort) and find yourself face to face with a deer who barely shows fear of you? Alright, alright, plenty of places, but Bloomington is one of them.
I need to get MEM III up and running, but I can't concentrate on it. And I'm always, always, ALWAYS sleepy. I think it might have something to do with the nighttime schedual I'm on right now. So I'm trying to shift around off it... and go off caffine, which doesn't seem to help much with the not being sleepy. I'll have a cup of tea in the morning and that's it. Its going to be painful today, but it'll be for the better in the long run.
I think I may be supposed to go up to CAEN on Friday, which could present problems. Namely that I still need to get up to Purdue and the Wolf Park to visit Kendra at some point (and just to see the Wolf Park, which I've always wanted to). I have a week left to do it and that's a day trip that involves 5 hours of driving... in otherwords, I need to be up early and shifted around. So either Wednesday or Thursday probably will be when I do it. I need to get in touch with Kendra about that too. And the Skidmore e-mail system seems to be malfunctioning... this helps not.
Damn it, why the fuck do I feel so lonely when surrounded by friends? It makes no sense. I know it makes no sense, I know I shouldn't feel lonely. So why the hell do I?
On another note I went out to get the paper this morning and discovered a deer munching on an apple tree not 10 feet from my door. The deer eyed me warily when I came out, but when I didn't show an interest in it other than sorta calmly talking at it it ignored me. That is one thing I love about Bloomington, where else can you go out of your front door into suburbia (of a sort) and find yourself face to face with a deer who barely shows fear of you? Alright, alright, plenty of places, but Bloomington is one of them.
I need to get MEM III up and running, but I can't concentrate on it. And I'm always, always, ALWAYS sleepy. I think it might have something to do with the nighttime schedual I'm on right now. So I'm trying to shift around off it... and go off caffine, which doesn't seem to help much with the not being sleepy. I'll have a cup of tea in the morning and that's it. Its going to be painful today, but it'll be for the better in the long run.
I think I may be supposed to go up to CAEN on Friday, which could present problems. Namely that I still need to get up to Purdue and the Wolf Park to visit Kendra at some point (and just to see the Wolf Park, which I've always wanted to). I have a week left to do it and that's a day trip that involves 5 hours of driving... in otherwords, I need to be up early and shifted around. So either Wednesday or Thursday probably will be when I do it. I need to get in touch with Kendra about that too. And the Skidmore e-mail system seems to be malfunctioning... this helps not.
Damn it, why the fuck do I feel so lonely when surrounded by friends? It makes no sense. I know it makes no sense, I know I shouldn't feel lonely. So why the hell do I?