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So last night around 3 somethings in the morning I was overwhellemed with joy.
I made millions of concluions about myself.
Because a millions dreams too soon and a million thoughts too late I realized life is bitter sweet. I realized I look to the old (as my friends who have a few years on me) for guidence. I realized I am attracted to older men because I lacked a strong male figure. I realized that even in my moments of stupidity I am still okay because people still care for me. I realized that I don't always have to be happy I don't always have to be sad I can be okay...
I looked in the mirror and saw something I am wonderful the way I am with my messy hair my cute shorts and tanks. I don't need the world to tell me I am beautiful as long as the ones that matter think so.
I realized that it doesn't matter if not everyone loves me, just as long as the ones that I love, love me and even if they don't oh well.
I saw Casey the other night were not best friends but I have no abilty to hate anyone she still the same playful girl I fell in love with...I wish she knew what a blessing it is to keep that.
Last nite I had this wonderful moment so I decided to connact the one that I will always want "Billy" I found out he is leaving for good this time...I hope to see him before he goes and I will do what ever it takes just spend a few moments with him, he is the boy that holds every ideal I want...hes just not someone I can love.
Jen has a feeling that Catlin and James are going to break up...sadly I agree...but the sound of his voice is very comforting its something about him he is just fimilar I guess.
I like my new job... the benedictine bookstore is fun...well it was today Alex is just really easy to talk to, its really amusing that Alex Chase and Tim are all like best friends roomates and live together, I hope I make it past rush but I can't lift a box for my life but I'm getting the hang of the register. I am liking Benedictine so far, I just kinda hope my mom will let me move on campus and I have a goal of actually connecting with more indians and muslims.
I made Ken cry...and made Jess's knucles hurt I feel really bad about that...I worried a lot of people but I hope they all realize that I'll be okay.
Life is bitter sweet!
I made millions of concluions about myself.
Because a millions dreams too soon and a million thoughts too late I realized life is bitter sweet. I realized I look to the old (as my friends who have a few years on me) for guidence. I realized I am attracted to older men because I lacked a strong male figure. I realized that even in my moments of stupidity I am still okay because people still care for me. I realized that I don't always have to be happy I don't always have to be sad I can be okay...
I looked in the mirror and saw something I am wonderful the way I am with my messy hair my cute shorts and tanks. I don't need the world to tell me I am beautiful as long as the ones that matter think so.
I realized that it doesn't matter if not everyone loves me, just as long as the ones that I love, love me and even if they don't oh well.
I saw Casey the other night were not best friends but I have no abilty to hate anyone she still the same playful girl I fell in love with...I wish she knew what a blessing it is to keep that.
Last nite I had this wonderful moment so I decided to connact the one that I will always want "Billy" I found out he is leaving for good this time...I hope to see him before he goes and I will do what ever it takes just spend a few moments with him, he is the boy that holds every ideal I want...hes just not someone I can love.
Jen has a feeling that Catlin and James are going to break up...sadly I agree...but the sound of his voice is very comforting its something about him he is just fimilar I guess.
I like my new job... the benedictine bookstore is fun...well it was today Alex is just really easy to talk to, its really amusing that Alex Chase and Tim are all like best friends roomates and live together, I hope I make it past rush but I can't lift a box for my life but I'm getting the hang of the register. I am liking Benedictine so far, I just kinda hope my mom will let me move on campus and I have a goal of actually connecting with more indians and muslims.
I made Ken cry...and made Jess's knucles hurt I feel really bad about that...I worried a lot of people but I hope they all realize that I'll be okay.
Life is bitter sweet!