Open the book once again.
It keeps happening... over and over.
Falling for every girl I meet; it makes me wonder if there's something wrong with me. I anxiously wait for this new semester to start, but part of me wants to stay in this month-long dream of talking to someone I feel so comfortable with. I don't know if I can study much with her in my mind. This winter seemed so short to me, filled with late night phone calls with the "I love you." and the "Good night sweetie." To think this started with a simple greeting. The difficult semester ahead makes me want to stay home and listen to her sweet voice through the phone all day long.
But when I wake up, this dream comes to an end.
She said I was adorable, loving, and funny... I blush every time she giggles, and just hearing her voice would make me smile. She's so kind and gentle; she makes all the stress in my life go away. She sent me a picture of herself; she has the cutest smile and the such beautiful eyes. We share many interests, from animals to music. It pains me to think that she lives so far away.
"My little Yochi-bear <3"
"I wish I could be with you, right now, keeping you warm and comfy <3"
What am I going to do... There are so many things I have to think about in the next few months. Moving into an apartment to live alone, working while I'm a full-time UTEP student, finding the time to call this lovely girl...
Alchemy won't give me a solution. Thinking about it only makes me worry even more. Knowing that my time to start fending for myself is near doesn't really strike me as pleasant.
"It's the price of freedom. You can do whatever you want, but you have to do the things that were done for you up until now, by yourself."
I'm 19. I have to grow up. I can't be a child any more. I have to act like an adult. No more crying to mommy for attention. No more talking to daddy for help. I'm on my own. I have to live up to their expectations. They've done so much for me throughout my life. Now, it's my turn to take care of them.
-ties Mindy's yellow ribbon to new shoes-
Remember the past. Look towards the future. Expect everything. Deal with every problem in a systematic way.
My story isn't over yet. A new chapter is just beginning.
Falling for every girl I meet; it makes me wonder if there's something wrong with me. I anxiously wait for this new semester to start, but part of me wants to stay in this month-long dream of talking to someone I feel so comfortable with. I don't know if I can study much with her in my mind. This winter seemed so short to me, filled with late night phone calls with the "I love you." and the "Good night sweetie." To think this started with a simple greeting. The difficult semester ahead makes me want to stay home and listen to her sweet voice through the phone all day long.
But when I wake up, this dream comes to an end.
She said I was adorable, loving, and funny... I blush every time she giggles, and just hearing her voice would make me smile. She's so kind and gentle; she makes all the stress in my life go away. She sent me a picture of herself; she has the cutest smile and the such beautiful eyes. We share many interests, from animals to music. It pains me to think that she lives so far away.
"My little Yochi-bear <3"
"I wish I could be with you, right now, keeping you warm and comfy <3"
What am I going to do... There are so many things I have to think about in the next few months. Moving into an apartment to live alone, working while I'm a full-time UTEP student, finding the time to call this lovely girl...
Alchemy won't give me a solution. Thinking about it only makes me worry even more. Knowing that my time to start fending for myself is near doesn't really strike me as pleasant.
"It's the price of freedom. You can do whatever you want, but you have to do the things that were done for you up until now, by yourself."
I'm 19. I have to grow up. I can't be a child any more. I have to act like an adult. No more crying to mommy for attention. No more talking to daddy for help. I'm on my own. I have to live up to their expectations. They've done so much for me throughout my life. Now, it's my turn to take care of them.
-ties Mindy's yellow ribbon to new shoes-
Remember the past. Look towards the future. Expect everything. Deal with every problem in a systematic way.
My story isn't over yet. A new chapter is just beginning.