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i know that its been awhile,
it normally is with me when i write in here anyways
but i like to say that point everytime anyways.
this entry will be different from last.
no real contemplations on whether what i feel is right, or wrong.
becuase i realised something,
everything i feel,
be it sorrow, happiness, pain, guilt, joy, love or hate;
is all caused by me and how i want it to be
sure there is always the mystery of why it is i feel a certain way at times
and i guess that everyones entitled to feel one of those at one point in there lives
but in asking the question, you spend more time looking for the answer to accomplish; then to actually make a change for the better.
howeverrr, lately, ive been really overjoyed.
why?
simply because i want to be.
to me its about making the opprotunities to feel something,
its about jumping out and in the rain instead of watching it from inside the window pane.
its about curling up with a bag of popcorn and watching a love story that makes you cry on the tv screen
its about waking up in the middle of the night only to feel someone you love wrapped around you
its about playing tennis while watching ten year olds play better than you in the next court
its about acing the first exam and realising the studying really does pay off
its about living life and not getting hung up on all the drama that your use to
becuase really drama only comes when you let it get to you
what i say to that is
fuck it
making the things that go wrong in life right, is half the point of it.
i was watching a movie the other day
leaving las vegas
and i highly recommend it if your into that fucked up, pity feeling kinda movie
its about an alcoholic and a hooker
and yet its a love story like i never would consider to be called a love story
but it opens your eyes
and it made me cry
though thats not saying much
but it just made me feel good about my life
anywyasy im suppose to be writing a c programming involving if nested statements and controlled loop vasriations,
and i have no idea what it is i am trying to acoomplish.
it normally is with me when i write in here anyways
but i like to say that point everytime anyways.
this entry will be different from last.
no real contemplations on whether what i feel is right, or wrong.
becuase i realised something,
everything i feel,
be it sorrow, happiness, pain, guilt, joy, love or hate;
is all caused by me and how i want it to be
sure there is always the mystery of why it is i feel a certain way at times
and i guess that everyones entitled to feel one of those at one point in there lives
but in asking the question, you spend more time looking for the answer to accomplish; then to actually make a change for the better.
howeverrr, lately, ive been really overjoyed.
why?
simply because i want to be.
to me its about making the opprotunities to feel something,
its about jumping out and in the rain instead of watching it from inside the window pane.
its about curling up with a bag of popcorn and watching a love story that makes you cry on the tv screen
its about waking up in the middle of the night only to feel someone you love wrapped around you
its about playing tennis while watching ten year olds play better than you in the next court
its about acing the first exam and realising the studying really does pay off
its about living life and not getting hung up on all the drama that your use to
becuase really drama only comes when you let it get to you
what i say to that is
fuck it
making the things that go wrong in life right, is half the point of it.
i was watching a movie the other day
leaving las vegas
and i highly recommend it if your into that fucked up, pity feeling kinda movie
its about an alcoholic and a hooker
and yet its a love story like i never would consider to be called a love story
but it opens your eyes
and it made me cry
though thats not saying much
but it just made me feel good about my life
anywyasy im suppose to be writing a c programming involving if nested statements and controlled loop vasriations,
and i have no idea what it is i am trying to acoomplish.