Drama...
I feel like I have more drama in my life right now than I want or need. I just don't know why my love life can't be easy sometimes. I've spent the last four plus months battling things out with Steve. On again, off again...but never actually getting back together. I never really thought that I wanted to get back together, but sometimes I got lonely and convinced myself that it was what I wanted. Now I have started seeing someone else. It will probably not turn into anything serious since I will be leaving soon, but he makes me happy. I have a lot of fun when I'm with him, and I'm going to miss that when I leave. Just the fact that I'm hanging out with someone else has made things complicated though. Steve, after 4 months of more or less acting like he didn't care and wasn't interested anymore, has suddenly gotten really lonely and really jealous. He's known when I've gone out with other guys before, but I think he could tell that I wasn't really that interested. I think he senses now that I feel something more for Joe than I did any of the others. He was envisioning a romantic month between the two of us before I left...and I didn't want that whether or not I was with someone else. The last thing I need to do is complicate things more than they already are.
I'm having a going away party at the end of the month before I leave. I didn't know what to do about inviting Joe and Steve. I wanted Joe to be there because I'm really enjoying spending time with him. But I wanted Steve to be there too, despite the fact that things haven't been great between us lately. I still consider him a good friend, and I would like to see him before I leave. So instead of choosing, I sent the evite to both of them. Steve asked me almost right away if Joe was going. When I told him that, yes, I had invited him, he promptly responded 'no' to the evite. So I guess that made the situation less awkward. Unfortunately, it caused a bit more drama between us.
Why can't things be easy? Why can't you be friends with someone after a breakup? Why do I have to deal with this when I have so many other things going on in my life right now??
I'm having a going away party at the end of the month before I leave. I didn't know what to do about inviting Joe and Steve. I wanted Joe to be there because I'm really enjoying spending time with him. But I wanted Steve to be there too, despite the fact that things haven't been great between us lately. I still consider him a good friend, and I would like to see him before I leave. So instead of choosing, I sent the evite to both of them. Steve asked me almost right away if Joe was going. When I told him that, yes, I had invited him, he promptly responded 'no' to the evite. So I guess that made the situation less awkward. Unfortunately, it caused a bit more drama between us.
Why can't things be easy? Why can't you be friends with someone after a breakup? Why do I have to deal with this when I have so many other things going on in my life right now??