Mar 30, 2005 21:47
Hey there,
So everyone's pretty stressed about FAME! I can tell because even I snapped at Nicole. I felt kinda bad like an hour later, but at the time I was really pissed. And speeking of that. I talked to Erika and Allie on the way home.(THANKS SO MUCH FOR THE RIDE!!!!) They're really nice. I dono why, because I usually only tell like Sarah this stuff...but I totally opened up to them! Haha sorry guys! And they like actully listened and LET ME speek!!! haha I was excited about that. Oh, but I forgot to say this...I was thinking about it on the way to my door as I was getting out my key's, I am REALLY nice to people because I want to be, and a lot of times, people take that as "sucking up or being TOO nice", well screw them because I dont have to be nice, and I can be such a bitch its not even funny!!! So I just figured i would rather put on a fucking happy face, and then just keep my comments to myself. Lol thats all I wanted to say about that. I"m really light strawberry yogurt. I have been eatting two a day, and dinner. One for breakfeast, one around break/;lunch, with a "healty" (I'M FREAKING TRYING OK??!?!?) lunch, and I have skipped dinner twice, and the other two day's have been provided by Kory E. wonderful mommy! I'm only doing this for Arabian Nights. Because the other night, someone made that comment that they were really fit and stuff, and well i'm not skinny, so if i just try to work out a little, and not eat as much, and eat smaller amounts, and healthy shit, then maybe i'll look half way desent for him...I mean he's right...lol I am a fat ass. Although I used to not like yogurt, i have become quiet fond of the cherry, strawberry, berry mix and black cherry. I'm supporst to eat a lot of it my doc say's its going to help. Ok well lets see...Wesley's mad at me because I yelled at him for not wearing his seat belt. Ok this is how it went (for me)
Sat: We got in a fight b/c I didn't want him to come over because I was tired and I knew all he wanted to do was screw around!
Sun: Didn't talk at all TILL 11:30 when he texted me asking if i needed a ride. I said yes only if you want.
Mon: I get in the car, and he isnt' wearing his seat belt, we start arguing over it, and I end up just getting out of the car at school and walked away from him...LATER on my way to French, he passes Jonas and me and doesnt' even say Hi. Then in History, he's giving this girl in front of him a message and kept looking over at me to see if I was looking (my buddy's in front and behind me told me this by the way)
Tue: he doesn't even fucking show up to pick me up, didn't fucking call and didn't even tell me mon night!!!!! SO! I was late and my mom was SUPER pissed at me. In History...does it again.
Wed: Again, he's a no show. Does this shit again in History except has his friend *he'll remain nameless* talk loud so i hear what they're talking about, me duh. LATER: Runs in to my mom, my mom tells him how rediculas it is of him to be pissed at me over me trying to help him and get him to wear the fucking seatbelt. And she explains that I only "harpped" on him because I care "Oh so much" about him, and that if it wasn't for me drilling it in his head, he prolly would have died in this REALLY REALLY bad car accident over Thanksgiving break. And that he needs to realize that if she was to run in to Karen(his mom) and Karen brough "us" up, that she wouldn't hesitate to tell her(Karen) why he is pissed at me. He didn't say anything she said. Wow i just keep thinking about how much i love my mom. She is always there for me. I love her so much! Lol that sounds so stupid, but whatever, she's a cool cat.
Going to bed!
xoxo
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