Accidentally in love....
Just over a week ago I got on a plane and left to see my sweetie in Texas. I can't believe it has been a week. :( Of course it felt like the day would never arrive and it went just as fast as expected. The trip was relatively pleasant enough. I had my first upgrade to business class experience on AirTran. I enjoyed having a larger seat and more space. I did get a bit restless about 1/2 way through the flight due to the nature of my conditions. Restless leg syndrome is a bitch on a plane. I had been pretty nervous that things might be awkward in person and I definitely was nervous but excited to see John once off the plane. I walked out and saw him and we were both smiling and just gave each other a big hug and held each other for a minute before giving each other our first kiss. I know it is totally crazy that I knew I was in love with a person I had never kissed but even our first kiss wasn’t awkward. It felt right.
We grabbed my suitcase and off we went on the trek to find the hotel we were staying at. It was a little hard to get to but eventually we made it there and the rest I will not get into to save you all's delicate sensibilities. The next morning we had some breakfast at the little hotel buffet and then got on the road to Tyler. Texas is flat and dry. The energy is strange there and I felt out of place more so than any other state or area I had visited. It is almost as Texas could feel that I was from a democratic state and a neo-pagan, Taoist Buddhist and wanted to get rid of me. ;) It took about two hours to get back to Tyler. John wasn’t kidding when he said he lived in the ghetto. Not the worse place I’ve seen and not the best. My apartment is a bit nicer but then again… I don’t live in Texas. ;)
I met Josh and Theresa and we weren’t home very long before we were getting around going out to dinner and heading out to Palestine for Wildcats football. John took me to On the Border. It was good and I would eat at one of them again (esp. since I know they are around here). My only regret was ordering something that I didn’t know would be the equivalent of three meals for me. :P We got on the road and ended up getting there early since we planned for traffic. We stopped by this yummie snow cone stand since we were early. I had never seen that many flavors before. Mmmmmmmm. We got some yumminess and headed over to the school.
The field was nice and we were facing away from the sun. There was a breeze which took the edge off the head but it was still pretty darn hot. I wore the Palestine Wildcats Football shirt and was a good girlfriend. J John is quite popular with the team and coaches there and he actually got a bunch of swag including a hat with his name on it and #1 fan on the back of it. It was quite nice. We didn’t end up winning the game but they did come back to not lose by too much. They played hard and I know John was disappointed that they didn’t win but he took it in stride. Got in late and didn’t get much sleep.
John planned to take me to Tiger Creek, a big cat sanctuary for abused and displaced kitties. It was pretty hot but again there was a breeze. I got a bit sun kissed and that affected me later on. It was a great time and a wonderful date activity. His gift to me was adopting a big kitty of my choosing. I chose Arula, a Golden Tabby Bengal tiger. She is so pretty. She was born in the month that he and I started our relationship and she loves water. J Overall, a beautiful kitty and I got pictures and an adoption certificate. After the fun, real life took over and we had to do grocery shopping at Wal-mart. I didn’t want to leave his side so I went with him. It turns out that going out to Tiger Creek, the Texas sun and heat, and grocery shopping knocked me out. We hadn’t been getting much sleep and so I crashed why he made homemade ice cream AND lasagna for dinner. I felt guilty about that. Esp. later when I was wide awake and wanting attention and he just wanted to get some sleep. LOL
Sunday John had to do laundry so I slept in while he did that. Then after he came back we lazed around for a while before we ran out and about in town. We went past the Halloween Spirit shop and an adult toy store, and made a pit stop at the local mall. Later we went to see Rise of the Planet of the Apes. It was the only movie other than the new Final Destination movie that we thought we both enjoy and I didn’t want to see a 3-D movie. It wasn’t bad and it was nice to do something as mundane as see a movie with my boyfriend. Afterward we had planned to go past this one BBQ restaurant for dinner and dine in but I was worn out and Theresa was hungry and would have to wait for us to eat to bring her back dinner so I just suggested we bring back food for everyone and eat together before True Blood. We watched True Blood together and I can’t believe that the season finale is next week. After True Blood I had to get online and print out my boarding pass. I couldn’t seem to find a way to upgrade my ticket so I just let it go and called in the morning and which point I was told they can only do that at the airport. I really don’t like American Airlines but more on that in a minute. Afterward, John and I spent our last evening together. Again, I will not gross you out with details.
We crashed Monday morning. Josh and Theresa seemed to be dead to the world so we got some time to ourselves but later when he had to bring out Theresa into the living room (she wasn’t dressed) and I kept to myself in the bedroom, while lying there I got very upset. I was very sad to know that I would be leaving. I had tried to distract myself earlier in the day with a movie on T.V. but it didn’t work. John did his best to make me feel better and be the stronger of the two of us. We spent some time alone together before we left to get on the road to Dallas. Once we got to the airport it started to get harder for me and I didn’t want to say goodbye. I tried to gage when I should go through security (it wasn’t busy at all) to get to my gate. In hindsight, I wish I had waited longer b/c even with looking for some gifts, the flight was delayed and I could have had more time with John. I cried in the terminal, gate, bathroom, on the plane. I was just a mess. It hurt so bad to be separated and while I know it is only temporary and I will see him near the holiday season I just couldn’t help but wonder if maybe I’m not cut out for this. However, my friends put it in prospective by pointing out that wouldn’t I be more miserable if John wasn’t in my life. I know I would be. We just seem to be meant to be together. Nothing in our relationship has felt out of place, forced, or awkward. We honestly can see waking up to each other for the rest of our lives and that is a scary thought.
The flight home was unremarkable. I couldn’t afford to upgrade so I was sitting in coach for the ride home. I have been on four to five different planes over the past 4 months and two of those flights were on smaller planes (one a propeller) and I have to say American Airlines was the worse experience. They were pleasant enough but it was the first time in all those flights/planes that my seat belt didn’t fit/was too small. I knew shortly after sitting down that this was the case and put on the attendant button and the woman greeting people and keeping us moving could have addressed me but I had to practically beat her over the head to get her attention and get an extender and in doing so I had to pretty much announce to the rest of the plane that I was so fat I needed one. It really pissed me off and I was just glad they didn’t tell me that I had to upgrade or buy an extra seat. It was tight quarters and of course my body doesn’t like flying b/c of the changes in air pressure. I was pretty miserable. We arrived back in Maryland to nothing but rain, rain, rain, and more rain. My suitcase was soaked when I put it in my car and I barely made it home in one piece. I went to bed shortly after getting home. I woke to feeling unwell and thinking I had forgotten my medication but I hadn’t-so much for working. The next day was car drama that put me out over $450+ dollars. *sigh*
But of the most part that was my trip to Texas in all its glory. I miss John and look forward to the day when we are able to be together in the same locale. The trip solidified our relationship but the intimacy formed has now made being a part a lot more difficult. Only the fates know what the future holds. I just hope I don’t fuck this up.
We grabbed my suitcase and off we went on the trek to find the hotel we were staying at. It was a little hard to get to but eventually we made it there and the rest I will not get into to save you all's delicate sensibilities. The next morning we had some breakfast at the little hotel buffet and then got on the road to Tyler. Texas is flat and dry. The energy is strange there and I felt out of place more so than any other state or area I had visited. It is almost as Texas could feel that I was from a democratic state and a neo-pagan, Taoist Buddhist and wanted to get rid of me. ;) It took about two hours to get back to Tyler. John wasn’t kidding when he said he lived in the ghetto. Not the worse place I’ve seen and not the best. My apartment is a bit nicer but then again… I don’t live in Texas. ;)
I met Josh and Theresa and we weren’t home very long before we were getting around going out to dinner and heading out to Palestine for Wildcats football. John took me to On the Border. It was good and I would eat at one of them again (esp. since I know they are around here). My only regret was ordering something that I didn’t know would be the equivalent of three meals for me. :P We got on the road and ended up getting there early since we planned for traffic. We stopped by this yummie snow cone stand since we were early. I had never seen that many flavors before. Mmmmmmmm. We got some yumminess and headed over to the school.
The field was nice and we were facing away from the sun. There was a breeze which took the edge off the head but it was still pretty darn hot. I wore the Palestine Wildcats Football shirt and was a good girlfriend. J John is quite popular with the team and coaches there and he actually got a bunch of swag including a hat with his name on it and #1 fan on the back of it. It was quite nice. We didn’t end up winning the game but they did come back to not lose by too much. They played hard and I know John was disappointed that they didn’t win but he took it in stride. Got in late and didn’t get much sleep.
John planned to take me to Tiger Creek, a big cat sanctuary for abused and displaced kitties. It was pretty hot but again there was a breeze. I got a bit sun kissed and that affected me later on. It was a great time and a wonderful date activity. His gift to me was adopting a big kitty of my choosing. I chose Arula, a Golden Tabby Bengal tiger. She is so pretty. She was born in the month that he and I started our relationship and she loves water. J Overall, a beautiful kitty and I got pictures and an adoption certificate. After the fun, real life took over and we had to do grocery shopping at Wal-mart. I didn’t want to leave his side so I went with him. It turns out that going out to Tiger Creek, the Texas sun and heat, and grocery shopping knocked me out. We hadn’t been getting much sleep and so I crashed why he made homemade ice cream AND lasagna for dinner. I felt guilty about that. Esp. later when I was wide awake and wanting attention and he just wanted to get some sleep. LOL
Sunday John had to do laundry so I slept in while he did that. Then after he came back we lazed around for a while before we ran out and about in town. We went past the Halloween Spirit shop and an adult toy store, and made a pit stop at the local mall. Later we went to see Rise of the Planet of the Apes. It was the only movie other than the new Final Destination movie that we thought we both enjoy and I didn’t want to see a 3-D movie. It wasn’t bad and it was nice to do something as mundane as see a movie with my boyfriend. Afterward we had planned to go past this one BBQ restaurant for dinner and dine in but I was worn out and Theresa was hungry and would have to wait for us to eat to bring her back dinner so I just suggested we bring back food for everyone and eat together before True Blood. We watched True Blood together and I can’t believe that the season finale is next week. After True Blood I had to get online and print out my boarding pass. I couldn’t seem to find a way to upgrade my ticket so I just let it go and called in the morning and which point I was told they can only do that at the airport. I really don’t like American Airlines but more on that in a minute. Afterward, John and I spent our last evening together. Again, I will not gross you out with details.
We crashed Monday morning. Josh and Theresa seemed to be dead to the world so we got some time to ourselves but later when he had to bring out Theresa into the living room (she wasn’t dressed) and I kept to myself in the bedroom, while lying there I got very upset. I was very sad to know that I would be leaving. I had tried to distract myself earlier in the day with a movie on T.V. but it didn’t work. John did his best to make me feel better and be the stronger of the two of us. We spent some time alone together before we left to get on the road to Dallas. Once we got to the airport it started to get harder for me and I didn’t want to say goodbye. I tried to gage when I should go through security (it wasn’t busy at all) to get to my gate. In hindsight, I wish I had waited longer b/c even with looking for some gifts, the flight was delayed and I could have had more time with John. I cried in the terminal, gate, bathroom, on the plane. I was just a mess. It hurt so bad to be separated and while I know it is only temporary and I will see him near the holiday season I just couldn’t help but wonder if maybe I’m not cut out for this. However, my friends put it in prospective by pointing out that wouldn’t I be more miserable if John wasn’t in my life. I know I would be. We just seem to be meant to be together. Nothing in our relationship has felt out of place, forced, or awkward. We honestly can see waking up to each other for the rest of our lives and that is a scary thought.
The flight home was unremarkable. I couldn’t afford to upgrade so I was sitting in coach for the ride home. I have been on four to five different planes over the past 4 months and two of those flights were on smaller planes (one a propeller) and I have to say American Airlines was the worse experience. They were pleasant enough but it was the first time in all those flights/planes that my seat belt didn’t fit/was too small. I knew shortly after sitting down that this was the case and put on the attendant button and the woman greeting people and keeping us moving could have addressed me but I had to practically beat her over the head to get her attention and get an extender and in doing so I had to pretty much announce to the rest of the plane that I was so fat I needed one. It really pissed me off and I was just glad they didn’t tell me that I had to upgrade or buy an extra seat. It was tight quarters and of course my body doesn’t like flying b/c of the changes in air pressure. I was pretty miserable. We arrived back in Maryland to nothing but rain, rain, rain, and more rain. My suitcase was soaked when I put it in my car and I barely made it home in one piece. I went to bed shortly after getting home. I woke to feeling unwell and thinking I had forgotten my medication but I hadn’t-so much for working. The next day was car drama that put me out over $450+ dollars. *sigh*
But of the most part that was my trip to Texas in all its glory. I miss John and look forward to the day when we are able to be together in the same locale. The trip solidified our relationship but the intimacy formed has now made being a part a lot more difficult. Only the fates know what the future holds. I just hope I don’t fuck this up.