God puts back the broken pieces that have been thrown away...

[alannah]

I have had a rough night. Danny came over and that did not go well. He was all close and flirty and before he left he told me that he just wants to be friends and that he never meant to hurt me. I don't trust him at all right now. I am so angry at myself. i just feel like such an idiot for following him around for like 2 weeks. Why am I so dumb? Why didn't I see it when he would flirt with all these other people? I feel like such trash. I feel like no guy would ever want me now you know. Like i am not good enough for anyone. After danny left i went on a cleaning spree. I vacuumed out the jeep, washed the windows and put my own stuff in it. Then I vacuumed my whole house, washed the floors, cleaned the bathrooms, set up the bed, made a picture album, did dishes, and cleaned up the kitchen. I just called alexis and cried for an hour. I am pretty sure it is mostly the drugs but I feel so sad right now. I just can't stop crying. I feel like such a loser. I feel like I do so much for my mom but she still doesn't think I am a good kid. I have so much to say but I have other stuff to do. Sorry if this is wierd but I don't know when to take my pills and my mom wasn't home and left her cell phone at home. I hope you all had a way better night.

Love always,
Alana Leah