lightness
everything is ok. i feel ok. my relationships from all standpoints are ok. I am ok with being the polar opposite of my dad and brother, and I have realized that I need to lower my high expectations for my mom. She accomplishes more in one day than everyone else at 102 Courtneybrook Trail combined, and when all is done she is still able to smile. I have friends back in Greenville that still think of me, and for this I am grateful, because even though I choose to be miles and miles away I still love them all. Even if some are more dangerous than others. I always learn something incredibly valuable everytime I go back, and this time was no exception. I was able to finally free myself of certain ties that I have been holding onto for 7 years, and my perception as always has changed on multiple levels.
I finally arrived "back in baby's arms" last night, and it was the best feeling in the world. Sometimes I worry so much, but I really don't have any reason to worry. We ate a fantastic meal at the Wescott's and had a blast hanging out with Nat and Allyson. We slipped away when everyone went to play pool, and Ian drove me on the their old go-cart path that was overgrown with green reaching into the darkness. We stopped and spent some time in the crowded front seat trying to figure out how to make the chairs move as the new Black Eyed Peas cd played. The sky was so clear and if I had a tent or at least a tarp to throw in the back of the truck I would have insisted that we fall asleep there with stars gleaming down on the two of us. We finally arrived back on Island Neck Rd early in the morning and exchanged presents that we bought for each other for no other reason than we wanted to. Ian recieved his new underwater digital camera in the mail while we were gone, and insisted on taking pictures in the shower. So cute. I am so lucky that I have someone to make me smile and travel with me everywhere both pgeographically and emotionally....
I finally arrived "back in baby's arms" last night, and it was the best feeling in the world. Sometimes I worry so much, but I really don't have any reason to worry. We ate a fantastic meal at the Wescott's and had a blast hanging out with Nat and Allyson. We slipped away when everyone went to play pool, and Ian drove me on the their old go-cart path that was overgrown with green reaching into the darkness. We stopped and spent some time in the crowded front seat trying to figure out how to make the chairs move as the new Black Eyed Peas cd played. The sky was so clear and if I had a tent or at least a tarp to throw in the back of the truck I would have insisted that we fall asleep there with stars gleaming down on the two of us. We finally arrived back on Island Neck Rd early in the morning and exchanged presents that we bought for each other for no other reason than we wanted to. Ian recieved his new underwater digital camera in the mail while we were gone, and insisted on taking pictures in the shower. So cute. I am so lucky that I have someone to make me smile and travel with me everywhere both pgeographically and emotionally....