On the road to.. something?
I wish I knew how relationships worked. I wish I knew how to work in a relationship. Everyone one of my past relationships has conditioned me to be .. I really don't want to say "needy" because even the thought of the word makes me sick. I've just been spoiled in every one of my relationships, as in.. I got to see them every day. All the time. Whenever I would call & want to see them, I would. And I'm honestly taking it out on Eric, probably the first guy I've ever met that is actually deserving of my time.
I guess I'm used to being told "I miss you" and "I want to see you" and seeing them within five minutes of them saying it or messaging it to me.. or something. I don't know. I guess if this ever turns into a real relationship, it'll be a healthy one, if anything. For once, someone that I won't see every day of my life...
Anyway, I'm starting to feel like I'm wound a little too tight. Before school I only had work... I could stay up all night & sleep in all day. I guess now I only have school, not work, but I also have commitments at church, and.. I don't know. I liked staying at Nadena's all the time & getting a little drunk & playing cards. And having someone else's bed to sleep in. Marc totally hates me now, by the way. Enough to be spreading bullshit rumors about me, but that's a different story.
I honestly would just like to get wasted & forget about life for a bit.. or maybe I need to get laid. Good sex would be the ultimate goal. lol
I guess I'm used to being told "I miss you" and "I want to see you" and seeing them within five minutes of them saying it or messaging it to me.. or something. I don't know. I guess if this ever turns into a real relationship, it'll be a healthy one, if anything. For once, someone that I won't see every day of my life...
Anyway, I'm starting to feel like I'm wound a little too tight. Before school I only had work... I could stay up all night & sleep in all day. I guess now I only have school, not work, but I also have commitments at church, and.. I don't know. I liked staying at Nadena's all the time & getting a little drunk & playing cards. And having someone else's bed to sleep in. Marc totally hates me now, by the way. Enough to be spreading bullshit rumors about me, but that's a different story.
I honestly would just like to get wasted & forget about life for a bit.. or maybe I need to get laid. Good sex would be the ultimate goal. lol