No Food, No Failure. Beautiful Bones... <3
I found some new thinspiration tonight. These are a few of my favourite pictures. I particularly like them because I think some of them are quite artistic.
But I shouldn't really need thinspiration at all. Because I've got it right in front of me.
I just need to look down at my stomach and see FAT, and there's my reason not to eat.
I haven't been doing well lately, and I'm not really sure why. I do well for a while. For a day. Then I let it go, and undo all my good work.
Maybe it's because I'm not losing weight quick enough. I know I can't lose it any faster than losing it by fasting, but I'm just so impatient.
I get so depressed by being so fat, I feel hopeless. And when I feel hopeless, I feel like my efforts are pointless. And when I feel like that, I feel like I'll never succeed. I feel like I might as well just stay a big, fat failure.
I must change this.
Maybe I need a new set of rules...?
1. Thou shalt drink at least 500mls cold water on waking up every morning.
2. Thou shalt always carry bottled water and drink it throughout the day.
3. Thou shalt stand on the scale before eating.
4. Thou shalt brush teeth after eating anything.
5. Thou shalt always say "no" when others offer food.
6. Thou shalt not be tempted by free food or food on sale.
7. Thou shalt never use food as a reward.
8. Thou shalt remember that too many calories is much worse than too many cigarettes.
9. Thou shalt remember that it is NEVER too late to stop something bad from getting worse.
10. Thou shalt never, ever, forget their GOAL.
Amen. <3