i can't save this flame if it flickers out again...
I'm not sure why... but I feel compelled to start this mother back up.
Most likely it's the previously ignored college apps and other homework. Let's see how long it takes me to get bored with it this time.
Life's been decent. I slept allll day. It was an amazing feeling to just lay there and have no where to be. No appointments to keep, unless you counted Dr. Phil at 3 and Oprah at 4.
Sucks having to wake up and have a shit load of stuff to do hanging over your head though. On the homework front, I seem to have taken procrastination to a whole new dangerous level. I need my ass kicked. On the college front, I just don't want to make any decisions. And I know I don't need my whole life to be planed out right now, but it just feels like I should. And depending on some of my career decisions, my entire college list changes dramatically. Even though I know these choices aren't gonna be the end of the world, even if I make the wrong ones... God it sure feels like it. There's just so much pressure and I guess I'd rather pretend that I'm not growing up.
Perhaps Jill and I will put a large dent in some of it this weekend between all the dance and work I have. I guess she loves me or something.
I think the winter blues is setting in. This can be the best and the worst time of yeat all at once. I should prolly start some sort of birthday count down or something. PS - its January 4th... the big 1-8, start planning now.
I guess that's all for now... I do believe I have plenty of work to do.
love me<3
Most likely it's the previously ignored college apps and other homework. Let's see how long it takes me to get bored with it this time.
Life's been decent. I slept allll day. It was an amazing feeling to just lay there and have no where to be. No appointments to keep, unless you counted Dr. Phil at 3 and Oprah at 4.
Sucks having to wake up and have a shit load of stuff to do hanging over your head though. On the homework front, I seem to have taken procrastination to a whole new dangerous level. I need my ass kicked. On the college front, I just don't want to make any decisions. And I know I don't need my whole life to be planed out right now, but it just feels like I should. And depending on some of my career decisions, my entire college list changes dramatically. Even though I know these choices aren't gonna be the end of the world, even if I make the wrong ones... God it sure feels like it. There's just so much pressure and I guess I'd rather pretend that I'm not growing up.
Perhaps Jill and I will put a large dent in some of it this weekend between all the dance and work I have. I guess she loves me or something.
I think the winter blues is setting in. This can be the best and the worst time of yeat all at once. I should prolly start some sort of birthday count down or something. PS - its January 4th... the big 1-8, start planning now.
I guess that's all for now... I do believe I have plenty of work to do.
love me<3