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i am disgusted with myself, why i let myself get into this situation. i opened myself up again to someone i thought i could trust and thought might be good for me. but in the end it just fucked me. i dont even know what to say. i am so hurt. so let down, again. i am just sick and tired of being led around. i just want to be with someone who is good for me and wants to be with me. i dont even know what to do, or who to turn to. i have no one. i am alone. my kids are so far away and they are the only thing that keeps me going. but i cant hold them. i cant kiss them. and at the same time i cant be with their mom anymore. i am truely lost in a sea fuck. i really feel like i am going to vomit. maybe it would be good. wretch out the sickness in my stomach. FUCK THIS!