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Halloween at Exploratorium with Za's group of friends. Afterward we went to a sushi/robata place where more drinking happened. Gave Ma the $ for the hotel. So now Hawaii is all set to go. Just need a rental car and a list of activities which I have slowly been putting together. I also need to apply for my Indian visa and get the flight to Kathmandu. Oh and need some certainty about the flight from Kathmandu to Lukla.
I exchanged a couple more texts with Mc, the guy I am currently pursuing. I am excited but proceeding cautiously. Guys tend to disappear after some chatting, or after an in-person date or two. Better not get too emotionally invested too soon. Am too tired of the emotional roller coaster of big highs followed by lows which is the rule of dating in SF, same as any city I think.
I have been having lots of strange and different experiences which sometimes make me longer for the familiar, LA. At the same time, I remember although there are a lot of cute guys there, it didn't work out for me with any of them, and my return to LA to find my prince and live happily ever after is just a fantasy. More realistically, I will remain in SF and keep trying to find the right guy. Not succeeding, but continuing to try. Just like how when I was 18 and would go cruising for sex, after I got some it satisfied the craving for a while but eventually I got the craving again. With dating, I talk with guys, it's good for a while, then doesn't work out for some reason, I give up on it and do stuff by myself for a while, then the feeling returns and I go out looking for dates again.