I am ME and I will never do what you want.
Today has had its fair share of ups and downs.
I had tests in 4 of my 7 classes today. None of which I was able to study for. I did well on the two math tests and the French test, regardless, but I epically failed the "Causes of the Great Depression" test. I knew what they were I just couldn't elaborate on them.
I basically got called a freak at lunch for expressing my sexuality. I said I saw this really pretty transexual on the internet and they all thought I meant a boy that dressed like a girl. I informed them that she had boobs and a penis and they all freaked out. My best friend commented 'What?! That's gross!' Insulting transexuals and myself. I see nothing wrong with them or anyone for that matter. They are people and if they want, they can have whatever makes them feel comfortable in their own skin. They should not be judged based on society's strict view of what is acceptable. People should not judge others because we judge ourselves enough. If one is happy with themselves, then you have NO RIGHT to tell them they are wrong or sick or disgusting or a freak. Society is so fucking cruel. Fuck your standard of beauty. Fuck your view of what is 'right'. Fuck your gender roles. Fuck everything you stand for, society.
I feel like I'm the only one that is so effected by society's judgment. I feel like the weight of their cruelty weighs me down, suppressing my creativity and expression. I don't feel safe expressing to everyday people that I'm a pansexual and that I don't feel like a boy or a girl. And from the way things happened at lunch today, I really am frightened to open up again. Should I just tell people I'm bi to make them less confused and make them not hate or fear me? Should I agree with them that I'm a female? Should I just say FUCK YOU and do what I please?
There will be no overlord that controls what I do. I do not have guidelines. I am my own person. I shall not conform to male or female. I will do what I see fit and that is comfortable to me. I feel others should do the same. Society's view is ignorant and narrow-minded.
I hate that I feel so alone with these feelings. I hate living around ignorant people who have nothing better to do but judge others.
I am my own individual. You should try to be one too and not fit your life into society's guidelines.
I had tests in 4 of my 7 classes today. None of which I was able to study for. I did well on the two math tests and the French test, regardless, but I epically failed the "Causes of the Great Depression" test. I knew what they were I just couldn't elaborate on them.
I basically got called a freak at lunch for expressing my sexuality. I said I saw this really pretty transexual on the internet and they all thought I meant a boy that dressed like a girl. I informed them that she had boobs and a penis and they all freaked out. My best friend commented 'What?! That's gross!' Insulting transexuals and myself. I see nothing wrong with them or anyone for that matter. They are people and if they want, they can have whatever makes them feel comfortable in their own skin. They should not be judged based on society's strict view of what is acceptable. People should not judge others because we judge ourselves enough. If one is happy with themselves, then you have NO RIGHT to tell them they are wrong or sick or disgusting or a freak. Society is so fucking cruel. Fuck your standard of beauty. Fuck your view of what is 'right'. Fuck your gender roles. Fuck everything you stand for, society.
I feel like I'm the only one that is so effected by society's judgment. I feel like the weight of their cruelty weighs me down, suppressing my creativity and expression. I don't feel safe expressing to everyday people that I'm a pansexual and that I don't feel like a boy or a girl. And from the way things happened at lunch today, I really am frightened to open up again. Should I just tell people I'm bi to make them less confused and make them not hate or fear me? Should I agree with them that I'm a female? Should I just say FUCK YOU and do what I please?
There will be no overlord that controls what I do. I do not have guidelines. I am my own person. I shall not conform to male or female. I will do what I see fit and that is comfortable to me. I feel others should do the same. Society's view is ignorant and narrow-minded.
I hate that I feel so alone with these feelings. I hate living around ignorant people who have nothing better to do but judge others.
I am my own individual. You should try to be one too and not fit your life into society's guidelines.