Solitude, Dramawhores, and Trust Issues
I had my College Algebra final exam today. I went blank on a few of the questions. I didn't write down anything for them. :/ Hopefully I still get a good grade. I'm a nerd and must uphold my honor! XD
I barely talked any during art class today. Megan still sits by me, so Cameron has to sit on the other side of her. So Cameron, Megan and the other Cameron are always talking in a group. And then on my left is Eden and Kristen, and they're always talking. So I was pretty isolated today. Meh. I man'd it up though. I doodled a bit and thought.
Samantha, one of my closest friends, is acting odd lately. She barely talks to Cameron and I when we're around each other. It annoys me that she thinks we should uphold what she believes is moral. It's none of her business what I'm doing. She says I can't possibly love Cameron. Ha. She has no idea what I feel, so she can fuck off. It just makes me so mad. Mind your business! Fuck.
People just love drama. Some shit was happening between two girls one morning and Megan and Samantha stayed to watch because they 'wanted to see if anything was going to happen'. It's none of their business so they should butt out. Drama loving children. :/
I want to start wrapping my chest. I hate these fucking things. They make me uncomfortable. I also want to buy pants that are a bit bigger than the size I wear. My thighs are stupid. D:
Bleh. I'm talking to Cameron about not trusting people. He's getting upset that I can't trust him, which in turn is making me upset. I can't help that other people have lied to me so much that it's fucked me up. I just can't trust anyone fully. I think they're all going to lie to me eventually. He tells me he loves me, but how can I trust it when so many others have said that too? Said the same sweet words, just to leave me alone and hurt. He's going to have to show me that he can be trusted. He's going to have to be fully honest with me. He's going to have to back up his words with actions, or the words are just empty promises.
I barely talked any during art class today. Megan still sits by me, so Cameron has to sit on the other side of her. So Cameron, Megan and the other Cameron are always talking in a group. And then on my left is Eden and Kristen, and they're always talking. So I was pretty isolated today. Meh. I man'd it up though. I doodled a bit and thought.
Samantha, one of my closest friends, is acting odd lately. She barely talks to Cameron and I when we're around each other. It annoys me that she thinks we should uphold what she believes is moral. It's none of her business what I'm doing. She says I can't possibly love Cameron. Ha. She has no idea what I feel, so she can fuck off. It just makes me so mad. Mind your business! Fuck.
People just love drama. Some shit was happening between two girls one morning and Megan and Samantha stayed to watch because they 'wanted to see if anything was going to happen'. It's none of their business so they should butt out. Drama loving children. :/
I want to start wrapping my chest. I hate these fucking things. They make me uncomfortable. I also want to buy pants that are a bit bigger than the size I wear. My thighs are stupid. D:
Bleh. I'm talking to Cameron about not trusting people. He's getting upset that I can't trust him, which in turn is making me upset. I can't help that other people have lied to me so much that it's fucked me up. I just can't trust anyone fully. I think they're all going to lie to me eventually. He tells me he loves me, but how can I trust it when so many others have said that too? Said the same sweet words, just to leave me alone and hurt. He's going to have to show me that he can be trusted. He's going to have to be fully honest with me. He's going to have to back up his words with actions, or the words are just empty promises.