now
i love him.
no i dont
i can't be so rash when my life is on the line
i wonder if you will notice anything further than the tip of your nose
i slide myself into this habitual place and i realise that i dont add up to teh sum of honesty i promised myself
i can't even admit that you hurt me. and that i lost.
they keep telling me the inverse of what i must hold to be true
if anyone knows the truth, its...
you don't pretend to care to understand.
i wont admit a losing battle until its glossed over in a history of warfare.
completely insignificant
in the grand scheme
we are all completely insignificant.
it gives me the strength to pick up and walk on.
when i try to stay and explain my weakness i end up my worst nightmare
of a dream suppressed behind years of hardened potential.
all there ever was, was
you are my biggest disillusion
the story, the life
in a refusal, i haven't lost
i dont skip a beat because i chose honesty
i havent pretended to hate you
to give you passion
i secretly gave you everything
i make it clear
we could all use a bit of clarity
do you have a complex? inferiority?
the notches on your belt
they will tell all
of lonliness
of lies
of refusal
if you can't keep your own head above water
we'll all drown in your sad, sad story
floating down the river
but mine has waves
that crash mercilessly and mold a rigid complex
the feeling of knowing you is unnerving
when the wave washes over me
my imagination takes me to where i dare enver tread
and then.
everything. all my dersires, my wildest dreams
float
pulsing waves.
i ebb, you flow.
and then i flow.
my limbs drift below the surface
only the round of my nose, mouth, eyes is left to the air
the sky never knew my face and the endlessness of this infinity
is unnerving.
i'll be back, like a habit.
i'll make you mine, until you fade into nothingness.
no i dont
i can't be so rash when my life is on the line
i wonder if you will notice anything further than the tip of your nose
i slide myself into this habitual place and i realise that i dont add up to teh sum of honesty i promised myself
i can't even admit that you hurt me. and that i lost.
they keep telling me the inverse of what i must hold to be true
if anyone knows the truth, its...
you don't pretend to care to understand.
i wont admit a losing battle until its glossed over in a history of warfare.
completely insignificant
in the grand scheme
we are all completely insignificant.
it gives me the strength to pick up and walk on.
when i try to stay and explain my weakness i end up my worst nightmare
of a dream suppressed behind years of hardened potential.
all there ever was, was
you are my biggest disillusion
the story, the life
in a refusal, i haven't lost
i dont skip a beat because i chose honesty
i havent pretended to hate you
to give you passion
i secretly gave you everything
i make it clear
we could all use a bit of clarity
do you have a complex? inferiority?
the notches on your belt
they will tell all
of lonliness
of lies
of refusal
if you can't keep your own head above water
we'll all drown in your sad, sad story
floating down the river
but mine has waves
that crash mercilessly and mold a rigid complex
the feeling of knowing you is unnerving
when the wave washes over me
my imagination takes me to where i dare enver tread
and then.
everything. all my dersires, my wildest dreams
float
pulsing waves.
i ebb, you flow.
and then i flow.
my limbs drift below the surface
only the round of my nose, mouth, eyes is left to the air
the sky never knew my face and the endlessness of this infinity
is unnerving.
i'll be back, like a habit.
i'll make you mine, until you fade into nothingness.