The Faded First Love
Title: The faded first love
Entailed: the infinite light ~vast and shining~ [extra story-prologue]
Author: akinoyama
Genre: Romance, fluff ???
Rating: PG-13
Words Count: 6,319Pairing: YabuMoto, YamaMoto, YabuHika, slight others
Summary: Ryuu told us we could forget our first love one day.
Warning: Un-betaed, terrible English and coherence as well, cross gender, possible OOC-ness
A/N: It’s for blozzom_zone . I’m sorry it’s not really good. I hope I can write YamaMoto for you better on Yamada’s pov.
Hi, everyone! Morimoto Ryuuna desu! In the real world where you live in I’m a boy named Morimoto Ryuutarou. But for this series I should accept my fate to be a girl instead. If you wanted to blame someone, blame the author! AWW!! She was just now hit my head… for saying nothing important. But those were her thoughts…she was the… UUPSSS… I would not continue it… I had to be a pro, yo! So… let’s begin the story!
I was at a comfort-classic restaurant, waiting someone. I had appointment with my best friend, Yaotome Hikaru, to accompany her to fixing her wedding dress cutting. Yeah… you were right she was going to married next month. And I was one of the happy people hearing her wedding. Furthermore, I was going to be her bridesmaid. Admittedly, I did not expect such thing since I knew she was very close with Inoo Rei. But, one day she privately asked me to stand behind her on her wedding. In other words, she chose me… not Inoo-chan… I always wanted to be her bridesmaid ever since I more knew her. I actually got scared at her at the first time I met her. Back then, I was only 9 years old and felt scared when I did mistakes I would get scolded. She was a strict person. I remembered she ever bumped at me and politely apologized, but I blamed it to other person. I blamed it to my auditioned friend, Yamada Ryousuke. I did not intend to blame at him at the first place. It was simply because Hikaru, after all, my senpai. It was kind of rude if I scolded her. So… I blamed it to him and he, of course, could not accept it as he knew he was so innocence. We ended up fighting to each other and Hikaru stopped us. I was so sorry for that, Ryou-chan…But, as I got knew about her better, she amazingly very kind outside the work stuff. And I started liking be friends with her and Ryou-chan as well. Ah… truthfully, Ryou-chan was not an ordinary friend for me. He was my boyfriend… and I was happy with this relationship. Although he was my first boyfriend, he actually was not my first love… And I never told him about it. I did not want him to know my tragic first love. Tragic? Ah… I thought I a bit exaggerated it. It was only my first love was something I could not reach. Besides, I had forgotten about it even though I still met him almost every day. The person I fell in love with for the first time was none other than Hikaru’s intended husband, Yabu Kouta. I believed no one knew this fact since I never talked about it to anyone.
Yabu Kouta was known as leader of Ya-Ya-yah by the time I entered the agency. He was a fun person. He even called Ryou-chan by ‘Punyukichi’ which Ryou-chan disliked since our auditioned time. His assistant at that time was Hikaru and my impression to her was like aforementioned. I then was put in J.J.Express along with Nakajima Yuuto, Takaki Yuuya, Inoo Rei, Arioka Daiki and other juniors. But it apparently I performed along with Yuuto-kun and Ryou-chan more often in the end. After three years on the agency, they gave me chance to debut along with 9 juniors who five of them had released a single before. My group was known as Hey! Say! JUMP ‘till now and had members namely Yabu, Hikaru, Takaki, Inoo, Dai-chan, Keito-kun, Yuuto-kun, Ryou-chan, Yuuri, and the last me, the youngest one. Being the youngest amongst them was a pressure for me. No one of them had the same age as me. It saddened me at first. I felt lonely. That’s why I spent most of my time by watching DVD alone to erase my nervous. But, Yabu and the others seemed not approve it. They often tried to talk to me firstly because I was too shy to start a conversation. Yabu, Hikaru, Yuuto-kun and Ryou-chan were the most recent people talked to me. Yabu as our unofficial leader (although he always denied it every time I pointed it) felt the responsibility to unite us and Hikaru as his long-life-assistant (although she sometimes complained the position she held since she was not the second oldest) surely helped her commander. She often helped me with the dance moves and comforted me when I got nervous. Yuuto-kun, Ryou-chan and I were put together on a TV show, so it was obvious if I spent most of my time with them.
Amongst the four of them, I was very happy when Yabu treated me kindly. I did not know why I felt such feeling on JUMP first year. I always tried my best only to hear he complimented me. And then I felt kind of falling in love with him. I was so happy whenever he was beside me and talked to me. It might be a fated God made for me… Yabu was not someone whom destined to me. I realized it in a very short time before my love for him grew deeper. One day, I came back to the dressing room to get back something I forgot. As I arrived, I saw the door was opened a bit. Somehow, I walked slowly as if did not want to make any sound as I entered the room. I saw Hikaru was sleeping on the couch. I thought she was surely very tired for practice. I then saw Yabu approached her and sat beside her. He, at first, a bit hesitated to wake Hikaru by shaking her. Therefore, he simply placed his hand on Hikaru’s head and began tapped it. It was the first time I saw Yabu showed such action to Hikaru. He tapped Hikaru so lovingly and always smiled to her. I felt my heart twitched seeing it. Hikaru after five minutes opened her eyes, rubbing it a bit and smiled to Yabu, asking why he did not wake her up earlier. Yabu chuckled, saying he did not want waking a sleeping beauty from her peaceful dream. Hikaru immediately whacked his head playfully then asked him what he wanted to talked about. The said boy went silent awhile after she delivered the question. Hikaru smiled and stroked Yabu’s bangs lovely asking him “What’s happened?” Yabu slowly threw Hikaru’s hand from him then pulled her closer to him. I gasped looked both of them. It was not my first time seeing they embraced, but, somehow it was so different than usual. I heard Yabu sobbed on Hikaru’s shoulder, he said he was stressed recently with many JUMP activities, TV show, and his practice for Dream Boys. The mood maker simply saying something to sooth Yabu’s heart and gently caressed his hair. I realized there was something special on their relationship as Yabu said “Hika-chan… promise… you’ll always stay by my side.” which she replied by “I do” and Yabu then tightened his hug. I immediately left them alone in the dressing room. I could not stand if I had to see further.
The next day they acted as usual as if there was nothing happened between them. But I somehow tried to avoiding Yabu and Hikaru. I did not know why I did it. I felt I scared to face both of them and had seen what I was not supposed to. Hikaru was the first one realized it and asking me why I seemed to avoid her and Yabu. I only said it was her feelings… I did not try to avoid someone. She apparently knew my lies but made no steps to force me to tell. She tapped my head saying I could tell her when I was ready enough. I startled how wise Hikaru could be. It made me could not hate her. Well… I actually could not do it since the time I saw Yabu embraced her tightly. And I did not know why. I thought I supposed to be mad and hate her, didn’t I? Instead I felt kind of relief if Yabu loved Hikaru and vice versa. The curiosity made me consulted with Yuuto-kun, Ryou-chan, and Yuuri when we had a chance to chat outside the work. Ah… I did not say the people I talked about were Yabu, Hikaru, and me… I had no intention to make them curious at me. Therefore, I simply said it was my cousin’s problem. I was so fortune, they seemed not suspecting me. They gave their opinions to me maturely. They were older than me after all, so they could give a bit different point of view, although sometimes I was quite mature than them. They thought my cousin (in this case me actually) experienced her first love but it was not big enough. You could categorize it as a momentary love or only a crush. Kind of love you felt only for few moments, not for a longer one. When your love was unreachable and you seemed not to get mad in desperate way… it could be concluded you approved the girl he chose. You, deeply in your heart, knew she was the best one to him. It might be my cousin mistook the admiration for him as love. When I asked why they (in this case Yabu and Hikaru) kept their relationship under secret, they chuckled a bit before answering it. There were many reasons behind such actions. They probably simply an anxiety of family and friends rejection; hurting close friends; or both of them was not ready enough to say it now and was searching the best time to tell it. I thoughtfully nodded and said thank you to them. They replied by saying “It’s nothing. You could consult anything to us.” Which I heard a bit conceited. After knowing what really happened to me, I happily spent my time with Yabu and Hikaru without any awkward feeling. I realized I was in love awhile with Yabu and then the feeling changed into admiration, not only for him but also for Hikaru. They were really kind to me. I felt I was with my parents when they were with me. They always protected me when the others tried to bully me. Therefore, I prayed they would declare it soon. But the reality told me a different story.
One day after JUMP finished practicing, Inoo-chan happily declared she was Yabu’s girlfriend from since on. I widened my eyes, disbelieving what I heard. Inoo-chan was Yabu’s girlfriend? So… how about Hikaru? Did they break-up? I realized recently there was something changed between Yabu and Hikaru. They hardly spent time together and Yabu got closer to Inoo-chan. Inoo-chan often showed her attention more clearly as well. It might be the reason they became a couple. The congratulations from the other members snapped me from my deep thoughts. I pretended to smile and congratulated them. I took a glance over Hikaru as she said same things. I saw she was shocked then quickly went home. I worried her circumstance but I could not do something because I had exams next day and had to stay at home studying. So, I planned to talk to her after school. She, however, did not come the next day, making me more worried. Our manager then walked in to us after practice and said Hikaru was taking her break. I could not hold my anger to Yabu any longer. I was about to yell to Yabu, but, Yuuri did it before me, making me and the others startled. I followed her towards the door and hardly slammed the door. Both of us actually hoped Yabu and Hikaru could be together. We often talked about them. Yuuri also admitted they were like her parents. So, the fact Yabu chose Inoo-chan over Hikaru made her pissed off. We always saw how close Yabu and Hikaru were, how they supported each other and all of us and how they comforted each other in times of need. They gave us a feeling they were really meant to one another but now… It had faded away. We believed it was Yabu’s fault because he had another person and Hikaru left so sudden.
Yuuri and I tried to call Hikaru asking why she left without telling us but it was useless. She seemed to turn off her phone or purposively changed her number so no one of us could contact her. The day on the agency without her presence was not fun at all. I decided to blame all of it to Yabu by ignoring him completely. I did not want to talk to him even one word. It was kind of my revenge because he indirectly took Hikaru away from me. It was true, I was not close to her at the first place instead I was closer to him. But time changed it. Her kindness changed it completely. I felt more comfortable with her than before. She always succeeded to make me laugh when I was feeling blue. She often helped me to get rid of my nervous. She had become my best friend and I disliked someone hurt him although it was someone I admired. Yuuri also took same step as me to Yabu. We then cooperated did it together until… Yabu brought Hikaru back!
Ryou-chan and Yuuto-kun tried to persuade us to stop our act as well as the others. But we ignored them. I knew it was so childish, Yabu and Hikaru even never declared they were a couple before. Therefore, it was pointless if I accused him for hurting Hikaru. In my eyes, however, there was nothing like that. For me, Yabu still had to responsible for Hikaru’s leaving. I believed he also felt it. I could see he became so stressed since Hikaru left but it did not ease my anger. I thought it was the price he should get after hurting her. He used to be helped by her on many things regarding to JUMP, but now, he should do it alone. Inoo-chan, though, helped him, could not reach Hikaru’s level even only a half. Hikaru did many things for us which we did not realize until she was not there did it for us. Day by day we missed her even more although Yabu asked us to get used without her around. I knew it was something hard to say for him from the tone he used. He could not deny he needed Hikaru as I caught him looked at Hikaru’s locker sadly. I felt pity for him but would do nothing until Hikaru gave us any news where she was now.
The stressing day finally over when Hikaru came back to us. I startled seeing her back then. She changed her look. Admittedly, it suited her anyway. After recovering form little shock, I along with Yuuri quickly ran towards her, wrapping our arms on her. We were so glad she finally decided to go back. I honestly thought she would not come back, the reason our manager said only an excuse for covering she had quit the agency. She knew she had made us worry about her, so she immediately apologized. I saw Yabu smiled in relief seeing Hikaru came back although it did not erase the guilty on his face. As Hikaru came back, the ‘cold war’ between Yabu vs Yuuri-I ended as well. We properly said good bye to him as we left the room and he really happy saying ‘take care’ to us which I saw a bit over-act. Although our ‘cold war’ ended, it did not mean I fully forgive Yabu. Yuuri and I even had new hobby, disturbing Yabu and Inoo’s moment which ended up Hikaru scolded us when she found out. We defended ourselves by saying we could still accept their relationship yet. I said I was used to see the closest person to Yabu was her not Inoo-chan. Besides, I was really happy if she and Yabu could get married and became my second parents. Hikaru smiled, tapping our heads lovingly. She was thankful for our attention to her and Yabu, but she asked us to face the reality Yabu was Inoo’s boyfriend. And it would not make sense if she was still close to Yabu, it could hurt Inoo-chan’s feelings and she did not want it. She argued Yabu could be sad if he saw Inoo was sad and she believed we also did not want to see Yabu sad. We thought about her argument and it was true after all. We convinced her we would try to accept Yabu’s decision although it was not 100 % worked.
As long as Inoo was Yabu’s girlfriend, I saw Hikaru got closer to the others than before. It was something good for me actually because she hardly did it. And in my mind, she became so close to Keito amongst the gentlemen. Keito apparently always tried to be beside Hikaru whenever he got chance. They often hung out together with me and the others as well excluding Yabu and Inoo. I started thinking Keito had a crush on Hikaru from the way he gently treated her, yet, I still thought Yabu was the most suitable for her. When I discussed it to Yuuri she simply asked me not to do anything unless one of them admitted it. She was afraid of taking a wrong conclusion from the relationship Keito and Hikaru had. Furthermore, Yuuri felt Hikaru was not ready to start a love relationship. She ever told her she wanted to focus on her study as she delayed it. I nodded, agreeing with her. Hikaru needed time to fall in love for the second time.
Yabu and Inoo’s relationship ended less than a year and was not something good for all of us. I did not know what triggered their break-up, what I knew simply Yabu could not face the reality Inoo left him for someone else. I honestly was happy with the break-up, it meant Yabu and Hikaru had another chance to be together once again. However, I quickly changed my mind as I saw he drastically changed. He frequently went to night club and drank. I also ever saw he was flirting with an unknown girl, making me sick of him. He often yelled at anyone who he thought meddled in his personal life. His concentration slowly decreased so he hardly focused on work. We tried what we could do to reprimand him but he never listened to. Mr. Johnny even warned to resign him if he stayed the same and it was useless as well. Yabu did not want to care. But, there was still someone trusted him. Trust him enough not to give up on him. It was Hikaru….
As I waited Hikaru at the restaurant, I still hardly believe how big trust she had for him although he tried to hurt her once more. One night, Keito in sudden phoned me asking me to wait him in front of Hikaru’s house. I questioned him what was actually happening and he just answered he would tell after we met. Hikaru needed you. The statement Keito told me making me afraid and wondered. Was something bad happened to her? Not long after I arrived in front of Hikaru’s house, I saw Yuuri waved her hand to me. Keito apparently called her as well. We discussed what was really going on as we waited them. We saw a taxi stopped by across us five minutes later. We saw Keito opened the door and helped Hikaru to stand. We quickly approached them, realizing something bad happened to her. I saw Hikaru wore Keito’s jacket and she looked really mess. Yuuri asked him to explain what happened meanwhile I only hugged the sobbing Hikaru. Keito told us Yabu get drunk and tried to rape Hikaru, but he managed to come in time before Yabu had time to do it. I really wanted to come to Yabu’s apartment and slapped him across the face for hurting Hikaru like that. But, Hikaru did not loose her arms on me. Keito suggested us to stay with Hikaru, it was what she needed the most. We should comfort and cheer her up. And about Yabu, he said we needed not to worry, he and the others would surely do something to him. We spent the night on Hikaru’s place, comforting her. It was the first time I saw the fragile side of her. She cried asking why it happened to her repeatedly. She also worried if media found out and published it. It could destroy JUMP and she did not want it. I questioned myself how she could keep thinking about other people after all of that. We convinced her everything would turn out fine. JUMP would face any consequences might be occurred together. She needed not to face it alone like she did since Yabu changed. We did not sleep that night, watching over Hikaru as she hardly to sleep. The next day Ryou-chan and Yuuto-kun came to see Hikaru. They said Takaki, Daiki, and Keito would tell Yabu everything and waited his reaction first. It was only me could not understand their decision. They should give Yabu a lesson for doing something shameful and regretful to Hikaru. Hikaru calmly said it was the best for the time being, besides he had not taken her virginity yet since Keito saved her in time.
On the way home, I kept questioning JUMP decision for only telling Yabu what he had tried to do Hikaru. Ryou-chan calmly explained the reason. We all knew Yabu and Hikaru were best friend and the best combi JUMP had. Therefore, their close relationship and the incident probably gave us a miracle. I frowned hearing it, how could an incident brought a miracle? Yuuto smiled to me said the incident probably could realize Yabu that he could hurt people near him without knowing. Yuuto believed if something bad happened to Hikaru and Yabu knew he was the cause, he would not forgive himself. I finally understood the decision they made. Yuuri then added Hikaru was still someone special for him. It was proved he could really never hit her. He simply walked away when he tried to hit her, in contrast to the others case. Yabu unhesitant hit them. We parted at the cross-road as Ryou-chan and Yuuto-kun had to go to the agency meanwhile Yuuri and I went back to our home to get some sleep.
The next day Hikaru mailed me to come to the hospital. I quickly got dressed and headed to hospital. I met Ryou-chan on the way as I waited the train. We discussed whether something happened to Hikaru until she asked us to meet on the hospital. Ryou-chan comforted me not too worry about her, we would know when we arrived at hospital. We were the last one arrived at the ward with a written card Yabu on the door. All of them seemed had been waiting us. Yabu who was lying on the bed tried to sit down. I saw Dai-chan and Yuuto-kun helped him to get better position. He apologized to all of us for his act recently. I gasped hearing it, he answered our hope in the end. He promised to get back to his old self who everyone knew. We gladly accepted his request to help him going through it.
It, however, needed a quite long time. He often out of control during his treatment and counseling and got angry to anyone near him. Mr. Johnny let him came to agency although he was under counseling with one condition, JUMP could keep the others from any harm. We tried to fulfill it since we knew we should not isolate him every day, he needed to interact to other people too. We did not roughly take the decision, we had consulted it to any related and authorized people and considered the risks. I remembered I did not give much contribution to it since I entered high school. What I could do only being more mature than before, working harder every day and visiting Yabu on the hospital or rehabilitation (sometimes he needed to stay on those places) if I had time. Yabu gradually get rid his addiction and back to his old self. He also tried hard not to do it again although his old friends often asked him out. I also saw he worked harder than everyone to catch up every one’s steps. He almost missed all the practice back then after all. He also did his best to heal his heart by forgetting Inoo and let her happy with Takaki. Yup… Takaki and Inoo officially a couple after Yabu decided taking counseling. I did not mind their decision, I thought they suited to each other.
Speaking of couple, now it was 7 love stories’ turn. The first one was Yuuto and Yuuri. Their love was coloured by a battle as Dai-chan felt the same feeling as Yuuto-kun to Yuuri. I realized something wrong amongst the three of them for a week and asked Yuuri whether something’s bothering her but she only smiled and shook her head. I discussed it to Hikaru about it and ended up Yuuri was being forced to tell it to JUMP. Yuuto-kun and Dai-chan tried to help her by admitting their love to Yuuri. The rest widened their eyes in shock. Yuuri told us that she cared the two of them, they were special for her, so it was hard to pick one of them. I frowned with her statement, was it really hard? I believed she actually only cared about one person, and it was strange she did not know which one. Hikaru covered my mouth after I delivered my thought and asked me to silent awhile. Keito then offered a way to their problem. He asked Yuuri to give Yuuto and Dai-chan same chance to get closer to her until she could decide which one she felt more comfortable with. And Yuuto and Daiki had to fight fairly, they were not allowed to obscure each other way. All of them agreed with Keito’s suggestion. On the way home, I kept teasing her saying she was so lucky to have two princes fought over her love. JUMP split in two sides by the love battle. I actually did not support either of them. I simply enjoyed their battle and teasing Yuuri after she had a date either with Yuuto-kun or Dai-chan. Seeing Yuuri simply got embarrassed or yelled at me was something fun for me. I could forget awhile, my routine as a high schooler and idol. Hikaru did similar things as me although she said she only wanted Yuuri to decide it by herself. I admittedly saw the battle between Yuuto and Daiki starting to fall in love as well. Nope… I did not fall in love with one of them. I fell in love with someone else. He was Yamada Ryousuke, Yuuto’s best friend. In truth I sometimes felt lonely when he was not around and got a bit jealous with Yuuri as NYC started. She had more chance to spend times around him. However, I did not really think about it because I thought it similar in my case with Yabu years ago. I recently thought about it again and finally realized I fell in love with him.
Yuuri finally decided the winner after two months. She chose Yuuto in the end. She said Yuuto was the one who could make her felt comfortable and being protected the most. Daiki, on the other hand, gently accepted Yuuri’s choice. He known Yuuto long enough to trust her to him. I was glad with their mature act. Yuuto never overly showed his victory, and Daiki seemed not to have a grudge or want to take revenge for his lost. Not long after that, on my birthday, Ryou-chan gave me a surprise. He asked me to go to Amusent Park to celebrate it. To surprise me, he gave me a cake with unusual letters. On birthday cake, it was usually written ‘Happy Birthday’, wasn’t it? But on the cake Ryou-chan gave me was written ‘I love Ryuu-chan’ instead. I almost burst out with tears as he asked me the answer. I gladly and spontaneously said ‘I love you too, Ryou-chan’ I thought his confession was something usual and all of you ever experienced such confession. But, the most important to me was not how he confessed to me, it was more to how deep the love we had after the confession.
I felt someone tapped my shoulder, I turned around and saw Hikaru smiled to me. We left the restaurant and walked to the bridal tailor. As we walked I remembered of how deep love Hikaru actually had for Yabu. Time passed by and we could forgive and forget what bad things ever happened to us. We interacted as good as when there were no big problems amongst us. The bond we had also got stronger than before. We were grateful to have and know each other. There was always something we could learn from one another and that was the advantage and power of us. We then had another trial as the earthquake hit Tokyo after we finished our rehearsal. We tried to save ourselves. Ryou-chan protected me during that natural disaster. Yuuri and Inoo chan were protected by Yuuto, Takaki and Dai-chan. Keito, on the other hand protected Hikaru. Yabu busily directed the juniors and staff out of the building. Hikaru who walked beside me suddenly walked the opposite way from the exit. I called her but she seemed not hear it. Not long after, I heard she hysterically called out Yabu’s name. Ryou-chan and I turned around and saw she was running towards Yabu then pushed him aside. She, however, could not have much time to save herself, therefore, the falling rocks successfully fell on her. I gasped and tried to run towards her, but Ryou-chan grabbed tightly my hand. He said it was still dangerous if I went there. I tried ignoring his advice but he did not loosen his grip on my wrist, instead, he pulled me away from Yabu and Hikaru’s place. I simply followed his steps without averting my teary eyes from Hikaru until I could not catch her glimpse. At the outside, Yabu who was carrying Hikaru bridal style passed by me. I saw Hikaru was badly injured and Yabu was so tense. He quickly took Hikaru to the ambulance and headed to the hospital. I was about to ask Ryou-chan to go the hospital as he without words stopped a taxi and pulled me in. He gently tapped my head, asking me to pray for Hikaru. He did not say something ‘everything’s okay’ to me. He knew he was not sure either whether Hikaru would be okay or not. We saw how much the blood on her body was and he would never give me an empty hope.
We looked for Yabu as we arrived at the hospital, wanting to ask Hikaru’s condition. We saw Yabu was talking to someone by phone. I assumed he called Hikaru’s family, asking them to come. Yabu said she needed a surgery as soon as possible, but, hospital asked her family agreement. So, we needed to wait them. Hikaru’s family quickly came to the hospital, Yabu led Hikaru’s father to the administration room to sign a letter of approval meanwhile we headed to the surgery room. The rest of JUMP also came to the hospital, waiting Hikaru’s surgery. I only remembered a bit times we waited Hikaru’s surgery. I was too confused and could not stop sobbing. Ryou-chan patiently asked me to pray for Hikaru instead of cry at her. The surgery went very well although Hikaru still unconscious. I began crying again as I hugged him. Yabu then volunteered himself to watch over Hikaru. The others persuaded him to take a rest awhile but he refused. He would stay on the hospital even though every body forbade him. We left Yabu and Hikaru’s family at the hospital. Ryou-chan sent me home safely. He even met my family before going home. He said it made him calmer after confirming I was on my family. My parents thanked him since he had protected me. He simply smiled to them saying it was his job after all so there was no need to thank him. After he went home and I took a bath, I tried to sleep while thinking about what happened. I finally realized both, Yabu and Hikaru actually still loved each other as much as when I caught their moment when I was on my first year on junior high school. Ah… I thought I was wrong, their love was not the same… it even grew bigger and they might be not realized it until such thing happened between them. Hikaru did not care about herself as long as Yabu was alive and Yabu seemed to have same feeling. I believed he would stay on the hospital until Hikaru gained her conscious. And I was right, although it had been three days after surgery, Hikaru still unconscious and Yabu had not left the hospital even only for one day. Ryou-chan and I made a bento for him when we visited them at hospital. I saw him thinner as he only ate very little. He said he had no appetite seeing the very contrast Hikaru lying on the bed. We tried to cheer him up and persuaded him to eat and take a sleep although it was for one hour. He weakly nodded.
Hikaru fully opened her eyes on the tenth day. Ryou-chan and I right away went to the hospital to see her. I was very happy could see her smile again. I told her how she scared all of us mainly Yabu. He even stayed on the hospital all the time waiting her to wake up. She blushed hearing those things. I could see the undeniable love from her eyes as she said she was glad Yabu was alright. Ryou-chan and I could not talk too long with her, we needed to take turns with other JUMP members. Besides she surely needed much rests. After doctors allowed her to leave the hospital, they, Yabu and Hikaru admittedly the love they had for each other. We all were very happy hearing that and with it JUMP had four couples. And then years and years passed, Yabu then told us he had proposed Hikaru and was going to married as soon as possible. About Keito and Daiki’s love stories, there was nothing much I could tell. Daiki was still single up till now and Keito had dated some girls, looking for the best for him. Ah and he was currently single. You could try if you wanted.
We arrived at where Hikaru ordered his wedding dress. The tailor then brought the dress and asked her to wear it. I really amazed seeing Hikaru wore the dress. Although she only used light make-up, she still looked so beautiful than usual. The dress looked so suit on her. I asked her who chose the dress, she simply said Yabu. I chuckled imagining the scene they discussed the dress. I knew both of them had a bit different fashion taste so it was not easy to chose what dress Hikaru should wore and what tuxedo Yabu should wore. As I waiting Hikaru I began wondering when I would wore the dress like her and who would stand next to me. Well… I actually I did not think about it too much. I was still so young to get married, I still wanted to aim my dream and I just graduate from university. I remembered Ryou-chan came to my graduation, giving me flowers. Speaking of Ryou-chan, he recently became so busy with his idol activities outside JUMP. He was filming dorama and also some activities with NYC, TV and radio shows. Huff… I really missed him lately… and got anxious… we did not have any dates about late three months. Hikaru’s taps on my shoulder woke me up from my thoughts. She had finished her business and asked me to go out. She questioned about what I was thinking at the tailor’s place. I a bit hesitated to tell her but I needed to discuss it with someone and she was capable to do it. She was getting married after all. We sat on the bench at the park nearby as I told her. She simply asked me to believe in Ryou-chan and the love we had. He surely had same feelings like me although he never said it aloud. People sometimes had difficulties to say their feelings to others. What we should do was simply looked at his body language and attitude towards us. It could be the answer we searched for. I felt relief after telling and getting advices from her. When I said thank you she only smiled, saying she had also experienced same feeling as me after all. And she could pass it together with Yabu. We then ended the conversation and headed to our own home.
The next day Ryou-chan called me, asking whether I was free or not today. I lazily answered ‘Yeah.’ I heard he became so excited through the phone and asked me to go out together. He would pick me up at my home, as always asking my parent’s permission before. After he hung up the phone, I happily bounced at my room. We finally dated! We finally dated! That one thought danced nicely on my mind as I opened my wardrobe, trying to choose suitable clothes for dating with him.
Indonesia, 2010 February 13