Scratch that.
the repetitively used phrase "everything happens for a reason" has finally sunk in.
I get the message. It took a while, and it kept hitting resend but I get it now. I was caring about the wrong things. When you keep charging towards something that isn't actually there you end up hitting a wall.
I've finally come to the realization that I cannot have what isn't there. I found a wide opened doorway.
It was never meant to be at all, and what is not tangible in any way can't be salvaged under any circumstance.
What was there was naivety. I fooled myself and wasted time, time that was ok to waste then but I can't waste now.
No person keeps their trash forever, it builds up in the bin for a while and then you toss it.
Once you throw out the trash it's someone else's burden.
to do;
1.read books
2.get tapered 4 and marble 2's
3.find a beautiful boy that I'll care for more than myself.
4.apply for scholarships.
5.sign up for a private tour of ringling.
6.make exercising everyday a habit instead of just this week.
7.no more snack food, yes more abs.
8.finish online school.
9.make art.
10.find a way to avoid you, but be around them.
11.find a way to bring my cat to college.
12.find a way save more money, AND buy more stuff at the same time.
13.get a bike.
14.get a sewing machine.
15.look at used wranglers.
16.called my dad on the regular.
17.get ready for real life, because I can't wait.
18.make a date with alyssa rae.
19. get my mom to teach me to cook well.
20.get in cosmetology classes.
that's all for now folks'
I get the message. It took a while, and it kept hitting resend but I get it now. I was caring about the wrong things. When you keep charging towards something that isn't actually there you end up hitting a wall.
I've finally come to the realization that I cannot have what isn't there. I found a wide opened doorway.
It was never meant to be at all, and what is not tangible in any way can't be salvaged under any circumstance.
What was there was naivety. I fooled myself and wasted time, time that was ok to waste then but I can't waste now.
No person keeps their trash forever, it builds up in the bin for a while and then you toss it.
Once you throw out the trash it's someone else's burden.
to do;
1.read books
2.get tapered 4 and marble 2's
3.find a beautiful boy that I'll care for more than myself.
4.apply for scholarships.
5.sign up for a private tour of ringling.
6.make exercising everyday a habit instead of just this week.
7.no more snack food, yes more abs.
8.finish online school.
9.make art.
10.find a way to avoid you, but be around them.
11.find a way to bring my cat to college.
12.find a way save more money, AND buy more stuff at the same time.
13.get a bike.
14.get a sewing machine.
15.look at used wranglers.
16.called my dad on the regular.
17.get ready for real life, because I can't wait.
18.make a date with alyssa rae.
19. get my mom to teach me to cook well.
20.get in cosmetology classes.
that's all for now folks'