Updates of Sorts
Dear Journal,
I think I'm going to start using this new format for my journal text. I'm also hoping to update the overall look of it soon, even though I really like this setup. Yay for Sango from Inu-Yasha, right? O:)
I'll be nineteen in...two weeks!! Yay for me. I'm almost half-way to 40. Heh. Still haven't decided what to do yet....If Shrek 2 is clean, I may try to go see it with some friends. I dunno though...Birthday parties just don't seem to be a big thing anymore. When you're little, you get gifts from all of your friends. I rarely got money, and I still rarely get money. Heh. I'm hoping for some art supplies so I can further my skills and maybe do some more stuff for my commission site. Check it out. It, too, may soon undergo a change of layout. All this change going on...What's going on? Heh.
Relationship is still tough. Whoever said it was all about the love and it's suppossed to be easy....LIED. But that's okay. Love's a commitment, and I'm trying to be as committed as I can. I really despise this new job of his though! Working from ten at night to seven or eight in the morning. It's rough on him, and it's making him to where he wants to sleep instead of go to church...Which would be fine if it wasn't ALL the time...But it's getting to where he's doing it more, and it worries me. I don't care if he comes to Bethel...He can find a place in Dothan to attend...I just want to know he's still being spiritual fed because I know he isn't getting it from home. You know? But anywho...Just keep him in your prayers..and me. God told me to stick this through, I believe...And I am. It's caused me to really grow closer to God, I think..And that's always good...But I wonder how he's doing spiritually? I so badly wish he'd take up the role of spiritual leader in our relationship..and we could center it back on God. That would be so awesome! I really miss how things used to be...And I try to be more like best friend, but it's so hard and I fail often. I'm trying to not be as demanding or whatever, where if I don't get to see him or he doesn't hold my hand or hug me or something I don't end up upset when it all adds up. It's hard. But if God's in it, it's worth it. O:) I want him to become devoted to God, and if it means I have to take a back seat..It'll be hard for me...But I want to be willing to do that. I want to make him happy and I seem to fail at that all to often, though I'm not sure how. I like to think I'm a pretty good girlfriend....I hope things get better soon. Even just a little sunshine would rock my world, God! Heh. It's not all bad, don't get me wrong. It's just tough. But like I said in my earlier post...What doesn't break us only makes us stronger. O:) I can only hope for the best.
It's funny...People are talking about marriage, and some tell me to not worry, that I'll be married soon...I think I'll be lucky to be married before I die right now. ^^; I hope he one day realizes how much more important friends and future (school, marriage, career, GOD, etc) should be over temporary "wants" (laptop, new car, etc.) I totally understand the want of those things. But they are NOT needs. Do not get upset. Work for them if you really want them, but they should be secondary....And they're getting in the way of you finishing college. Check your priorities! That's so important...God first, then people and school, then things like that, ya know? If you never finish college, or take years to, what's the good of those things when you already have stuff to suffice? Anywho...End rant. Heh.
I don't know whether I'm going to lead music in Vacation Bible School (aka VBS) or help with the 5th graders...Could use prayer on that. O:) Gonna review the songs and stuff within the next day or so and let people know. I prefer to be in the class, not leading it, and I really enjoy the music and stuff, so, I dunno..Anwho.
I probably won't get to see Marc until next weekend. I hope I remember to tell him little Samantha from church said hey, since he didn't go this Sunday. Her and Andrew and the little kids at church really admire him. I wish little kids liked me like that. O;) Heh. Though I think Samantha would try to steal him from me if she could. o.O It was so funny! Her brother was nagging her about having so many boyfriends, and she informed me that she only had two, one real boyfriend, and one as a back-up. I about died! It was so funny (to me). Heh. She's cute, but interesting. o.O; Anywho...I wonder if Jon's gonna call Marc about working with his dad, or if I should. I dunno. I think him or Mrs. Pam should...He'd probably listen to them better.
Tiffany'll be leaving within a couple of weeks. Sad times. Fifth Sunday Night Sing'll be on my birthday this year! If you all live near me, you should come sing at my church for me (and of course, more importantly God) on my birthday..!! Yes yes!! Anywho. I'm gonna end this entry for now. Thanks for reading, if you've made it this far! I'll end with this, journal...:
(Snagging from friends' journals) Feel free to ask me any three questions, no more or no less, and then ask your journal readers to do the same! O:) I look forward to the comments, so...Don't dissapoint me! O:D Heh. Love you guys!!
Sincerely Your Cheerful Angel,
Akarui Mitsukai
O:) O:) O:) O:) O:) O:) O:) O:) O:) O:) O:) O:)
How ready for marriage are you?
P.S. I think I'm gonna try not to call Marc so much unless he tries to call me more when I know he can call me...Should I tell him what I'm doing, or just quit calling so much? I've been cutting back a bit. I don't want to annoy him....I dunno if I am or not, but..Heh. I dunno. We'll see.
I think I'm going to start using this new format for my journal text. I'm also hoping to update the overall look of it soon, even though I really like this setup. Yay for Sango from Inu-Yasha, right? O:)
I'll be nineteen in...two weeks!! Yay for me. I'm almost half-way to 40. Heh. Still haven't decided what to do yet....If Shrek 2 is clean, I may try to go see it with some friends. I dunno though...Birthday parties just don't seem to be a big thing anymore. When you're little, you get gifts from all of your friends. I rarely got money, and I still rarely get money. Heh. I'm hoping for some art supplies so I can further my skills and maybe do some more stuff for my commission site. Check it out. It, too, may soon undergo a change of layout. All this change going on...What's going on? Heh.
Relationship is still tough. Whoever said it was all about the love and it's suppossed to be easy....LIED. But that's okay. Love's a commitment, and I'm trying to be as committed as I can. I really despise this new job of his though! Working from ten at night to seven or eight in the morning. It's rough on him, and it's making him to where he wants to sleep instead of go to church...Which would be fine if it wasn't ALL the time...But it's getting to where he's doing it more, and it worries me. I don't care if he comes to Bethel...He can find a place in Dothan to attend...I just want to know he's still being spiritual fed because I know he isn't getting it from home. You know? But anywho...Just keep him in your prayers..and me. God told me to stick this through, I believe...And I am. It's caused me to really grow closer to God, I think..And that's always good...But I wonder how he's doing spiritually? I so badly wish he'd take up the role of spiritual leader in our relationship..and we could center it back on God. That would be so awesome! I really miss how things used to be...And I try to be more like best friend, but it's so hard and I fail often. I'm trying to not be as demanding or whatever, where if I don't get to see him or he doesn't hold my hand or hug me or something I don't end up upset when it all adds up. It's hard. But if God's in it, it's worth it. O:) I want him to become devoted to God, and if it means I have to take a back seat..It'll be hard for me...But I want to be willing to do that. I want to make him happy and I seem to fail at that all to often, though I'm not sure how. I like to think I'm a pretty good girlfriend....I hope things get better soon. Even just a little sunshine would rock my world, God! Heh. It's not all bad, don't get me wrong. It's just tough. But like I said in my earlier post...What doesn't break us only makes us stronger. O:) I can only hope for the best.
It's funny...People are talking about marriage, and some tell me to not worry, that I'll be married soon...I think I'll be lucky to be married before I die right now. ^^; I hope he one day realizes how much more important friends and future (school, marriage, career, GOD, etc) should be over temporary "wants" (laptop, new car, etc.) I totally understand the want of those things. But they are NOT needs. Do not get upset. Work for them if you really want them, but they should be secondary....And they're getting in the way of you finishing college. Check your priorities! That's so important...God first, then people and school, then things like that, ya know? If you never finish college, or take years to, what's the good of those things when you already have stuff to suffice? Anywho...End rant. Heh.
I don't know whether I'm going to lead music in Vacation Bible School (aka VBS) or help with the 5th graders...Could use prayer on that. O:) Gonna review the songs and stuff within the next day or so and let people know. I prefer to be in the class, not leading it, and I really enjoy the music and stuff, so, I dunno..Anwho.
I probably won't get to see Marc until next weekend. I hope I remember to tell him little Samantha from church said hey, since he didn't go this Sunday. Her and Andrew and the little kids at church really admire him. I wish little kids liked me like that. O;) Heh. Though I think Samantha would try to steal him from me if she could. o.O It was so funny! Her brother was nagging her about having so many boyfriends, and she informed me that she only had two, one real boyfriend, and one as a back-up. I about died! It was so funny (to me). Heh. She's cute, but interesting. o.O; Anywho...I wonder if Jon's gonna call Marc about working with his dad, or if I should. I dunno. I think him or Mrs. Pam should...He'd probably listen to them better.
Tiffany'll be leaving within a couple of weeks. Sad times. Fifth Sunday Night Sing'll be on my birthday this year! If you all live near me, you should come sing at my church for me (and of course, more importantly God) on my birthday..!! Yes yes!! Anywho. I'm gonna end this entry for now. Thanks for reading, if you've made it this far! I'll end with this, journal...:
(Snagging from friends' journals) Feel free to ask me any three questions, no more or no less, and then ask your journal readers to do the same! O:) I look forward to the comments, so...Don't dissapoint me! O:D Heh. Love you guys!!
Sincerely Your Cheerful Angel,
Akarui Mitsukai
O:) O:) O:) O:) O:) O:) O:) O:) O:) O:) O:) O:)
How ready for marriage are you?
P.S. I think I'm gonna try not to call Marc so much unless he tries to call me more when I know he can call me...Should I tell him what I'm doing, or just quit calling so much? I've been cutting back a bit. I don't want to annoy him....I dunno if I am or not, but..Heh. I dunno. We'll see.