dead tree.

[akarinoele]

i really wanted to start again,  but i can't do it.

i thought i'll be strong enough for it but i'm not.

i hoped it will be better. i hoped i can smile anyway. i hoped for my dreams, i hoped for colours and shine of future life.

but every blah about other people's happiness is killing me. i wanted to smile with them, but now i'm totally off.

totally dead inside, but with smile outside. how perfect illusion.