smoked out
spent most of the night on a big hookah. three hours of that and you'll get the perfectly nice level of dopeyness. not hurting or nauseous. just a nice feeling and still in total control of everything.
i guess that's why i stopped smoking and drinking everything else. not a great feeling and certainly not a point of control. really, i found i didn't need those things anymore. i was loopy enough as it was. and frankly, i like me. i like being in control. i like being able to snap in and out of the idiocy whenever i feel like it. it's great. it's freedom.
some people think it has to do with religion. not true at all. everyone, religious or otherwise, thinks i'm a strict adherent, which doesn't make any sense. religion is a form of meditation, a community identity, a way of touching base with the past, history and common-sense on how to see and live life. it just keeps me in tune, but doesn't dictate my life.
the danger though, is once you start talking like that, people get worked up because you're moralizing and self-righteous. not so. first, i'm not judging regardless. second, it's not about whether or not you do X but why you do or don't do X. if you know what you're about, if you know what you're doing and control why you do it, then you should be cool.
beyond that though, i'm only gonna care if you start hurting yourself. not from some position of moral high ground, but because i've been there. i've done all the stupid shit, chronically and acutely, and i know what it does.
and so it's all out of love, not for who i am and wanting to make you like me, but out of love for who you are and wanting to make sure you stay that way
peas
i guess that's why i stopped smoking and drinking everything else. not a great feeling and certainly not a point of control. really, i found i didn't need those things anymore. i was loopy enough as it was. and frankly, i like me. i like being in control. i like being able to snap in and out of the idiocy whenever i feel like it. it's great. it's freedom.
some people think it has to do with religion. not true at all. everyone, religious or otherwise, thinks i'm a strict adherent, which doesn't make any sense. religion is a form of meditation, a community identity, a way of touching base with the past, history and common-sense on how to see and live life. it just keeps me in tune, but doesn't dictate my life.
the danger though, is once you start talking like that, people get worked up because you're moralizing and self-righteous. not so. first, i'm not judging regardless. second, it's not about whether or not you do X but why you do or don't do X. if you know what you're about, if you know what you're doing and control why you do it, then you should be cool.
beyond that though, i'm only gonna care if you start hurting yourself. not from some position of moral high ground, but because i've been there. i've done all the stupid shit, chronically and acutely, and i know what it does.
and so it's all out of love, not for who i am and wanting to make you like me, but out of love for who you are and wanting to make sure you stay that way
peas