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there's a solar eclipse on the 18th.
they're supposed to bring the end of one thing
and the beginning of another.
my homoscope says this eclipse will be the beginning of a string of good fortune for me.
we're leaving for phoenix on the 21st.
i'm hoping we find a house
or i find a job while we're there.
that would be amazing
and lift so much weight.
i need to make a better portfolio. soon.
you know how a wave can pull you under
and roll you around
whether you struggle or not
the only thing you can really do is act like a rag doll
and wait to surface?
thats how i feel lately.
and i'm getting tired.
telling myself i'm fine on my own
and i dont NEED any help.
it's bullshit.
i need my friends.
i need to know someone will be there for me.
i guess i figured if i never asked for help,
i could never get let down.
it's almost worse than lying to myself.
bottom line:
everyone's lives are going in different directions
and i'm pretty scared about it.
they're supposed to bring the end of one thing
and the beginning of another.
my homoscope says this eclipse will be the beginning of a string of good fortune for me.
we're leaving for phoenix on the 21st.
i'm hoping we find a house
or i find a job while we're there.
that would be amazing
and lift so much weight.
i need to make a better portfolio. soon.
you know how a wave can pull you under
and roll you around
whether you struggle or not
the only thing you can really do is act like a rag doll
and wait to surface?
thats how i feel lately.
and i'm getting tired.
telling myself i'm fine on my own
and i dont NEED any help.
it's bullshit.
i need my friends.
i need to know someone will be there for me.
i guess i figured if i never asked for help,
i could never get let down.
it's almost worse than lying to myself.
bottom line:
everyone's lives are going in different directions
and i'm pretty scared about it.