it don't matter if you're black or white.
I haven't felt like doing much of anything the last few weeks. My mom sent me a shrink (yay.) who seems to know about all my problems. She doesn't, obviously. How can you understand losing the most wonderful person in the world when it's not something you have ever been blessed with?
Nikki says Paula was using me, but I don't think so. How could such a beautiful woman do something so ugly? On the other hand, I want her to be happy...and I know now that I can't make her happy...so I'll just have to let it be.
Tenia called me the other night to apologize for alexandra's behavior. I thanked her, and she showed genuine concern for me...which seems to be a scary thought.
Halloween was uneventful and pointless. Everyone went out to a club or something. I am obviously not old enough, so I babysat Tristen...which was fun until he passed out. Nikki had taken him trick or treating earlier.
I don't understand what happened to Nikki and RJ. I was so happy for them when I stayed at Nikki's...it really seemed like he was the one who would bring her back from the sadness she has always been running from. Whatever, not my problem..nice thing is, she doesn't seem to be hurting over it. So whatever understanding they reached, must have been acceptable.
She's my touchstone. Nikki, you are the best friend I could have asked for during these awful weeks. You're sweet and loving and I hope someday you'll let another man see that. I know Joshua hurt you, but you deserve to be happy.
Nikki says Paula was using me, but I don't think so. How could such a beautiful woman do something so ugly? On the other hand, I want her to be happy...and I know now that I can't make her happy...so I'll just have to let it be.
Tenia called me the other night to apologize for alexandra's behavior. I thanked her, and she showed genuine concern for me...which seems to be a scary thought.
Halloween was uneventful and pointless. Everyone went out to a club or something. I am obviously not old enough, so I babysat Tristen...which was fun until he passed out. Nikki had taken him trick or treating earlier.
I don't understand what happened to Nikki and RJ. I was so happy for them when I stayed at Nikki's...it really seemed like he was the one who would bring her back from the sadness she has always been running from. Whatever, not my problem..nice thing is, she doesn't seem to be hurting over it. So whatever understanding they reached, must have been acceptable.
She's my touchstone. Nikki, you are the best friend I could have asked for during these awful weeks. You're sweet and loving and I hope someday you'll let another man see that. I know Joshua hurt you, but you deserve to be happy.