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i got hours at work! yay! about 20. possibly more. i worked yesterday, am working today, will work tomorrow and sunday. i know i'm gay, but i like money. so i'm excited. and my mother also owes me 80 dollars. actually, 100 seeing as to how it's friday. but now that i have a source of income, i don't think i'll be getting allowance anymore. that's sad. oh well. but in my next paycheck i'll have about 200 dollars, and i'm getting that 80/100 from my mom. WOO MONEY. I LOVE HAVING A JOB. ok, i'm ok. brb. ok, i had to pee. anyways, i'm going to a movie with andy and a friend of his tomorrow, but because i'm retarded, i thought tomorrow was today and i called him twice and no one picked up, so i got my little self dressed and as i was approaching the movie theater driveway, i was like, "today is friday. not saturday" and then i drove around elon for a bit and came home and here i am now, cooking vegetable lasagna. my legs are sore from standing up for 6 hours. if you get caught sitting at work, you'll get fired. how gay. not by my boss or anything, but if the company sends in a spy. cause they're sneaky. stealth. dammit, olivia just reminded me that i forgot about the show last night. i wanted to go to that. so i could see wes and people. i haven't seen him in forever. i don't have any friends anymore. i mean, i do, but i don't hang out with anyone except ryan. which is fine, because there's only a select few people that i'm not tired of. and no one's done anything to piss me off or annoy me or anything, i'm just ready for new things. i'm too a.d.d for friends. does anyone know what i'm talking about? i think i'm crazy. damn. but i don't really want new friends right now. i dont have time for friends. and i really need to start reading my books. and i don't wanna. i don't think they'll be that bad, it's just that i don't want to put forth the time or energy. too many things take up too much energy. drew, ryan, work, my parents. it takes a lot of time and energy to keep my dad away from me, and my mother close to me. i have to walk on egg shells so i don't offend her, and i have to think of really creative ways to offend him so he'll stay away from me. and drew (don't take this the wrong way, i don't mean it badly) takes up more time and energy than anything else does. and i'll give him credit, he's been less dependent on me lately, but it's still a challenge to keep someone's emotional well-being intact all the time. but i'm not bitching about any of this. my life is great. i'm happy. i love drew. hopefully i'll be going up there in the winter. i miss him like 297856239867239879387 times more than i thought i would, already. anyways, i need to shower and stuff before i go to work. and i have to talk to him on the phone for a while. i get time and a half sunday cause it's the 4th of july. more money!