The Silver Lining
Everything worked out, no cancer. I am still sort of getting over it. My escape from home was not as smooth as I planned, but things are resolved.
Back at school. No motivation. I don't know why I wanted to be so involved. I won't lie, I kind of wish I had nothing after February 17. But now I keeping going til April 8. But after April 8, I will be done for the year. Who knows what I will do next year.
The more I think about my future, the more confused I become.
I hate having to look at him 5 days a week. I hate that I am forgiving him. I hate that I can't stay angry at him. I hate that I still like him. I hate that I still hope for something even though that is never happening.
A small hope.
He still looks at me in the same way.
Back at school. No motivation. I don't know why I wanted to be so involved. I won't lie, I kind of wish I had nothing after February 17. But now I keeping going til April 8. But after April 8, I will be done for the year. Who knows what I will do next year.
The more I think about my future, the more confused I become.
I hate having to look at him 5 days a week. I hate that I am forgiving him. I hate that I can't stay angry at him. I hate that I still like him. I hate that I still hope for something even though that is never happening.
A small hope.
He still looks at me in the same way.