still i blog,
i officially leave my work today, to tomorrow. haha!
and i just went over to Ting's to borrow a book to read
i foresee that i have to stay back tomorrow till late to finish my work
no biggie!
its funny that everyone has 24 hours but some of us feel that its not enough
we are all given the same amount, so the ability to manage that amount
is the ability also to get more things done within the same amount of time
as compared to others, or rather as compared to our individual's standards
and if you are already managing time effectively and still cannot get work done
then it could mean that you are not fully utilizing your resources to your advantage
and by then if still you are unable to finish what you want to within that amount of time,
you should consider self improvement, to stretch your capability to handle a certain
amount of workload given that limited amount of time!
*breathes in deep
honestly, you can touch your heart and tell me that i dont make sense
haha, cause i dont know which part of me conjure all that out of the air
i am talking about myself rather, even though i seem to use the word 'you' more than 'i'
i just dont want to seem like i am talking to myself
it seems that the root of fear is insecurity.
insecure in one's capability, insecure in one's identity
insecure in relationships, insecure in being
there is consistency with fear and insecurity
i am not really putting how i feel into words
but then again, i am self evaluating why i feel the way i do sometimes
i have to be more secure, learn to trust myself and others more.
these few days have really been trying,
today we decided the fate of the students by deciding which class they
will be placed in next year.
and its saddening really, however every system created by Man
is flawed, because Man is flawed.
we cannot expect a system to be foolproof and for no one to
fall through the cracks in our society, much less our education.
its meetings after meetings the entire day today, and it really
saps the energy out of me, physically and mentally
i wonder how can anyone still absorb anything, but its good training nevertheless
i think my attention span is stretched slightly more.
i foresee endless meetings for the next 2 weeks
its times like these that i want to be extremely selfish
not like i am not selfish already haha!
but rather i would like to do whatever i like, whenever i feel like
without considering anyone else, just for one day.
each time we consider how others might feel,
whether they might be bored, whether they might feel sick of
this or that particular activity
i might sound disgusting that i would like a day about me sometimes
but thats how i really feel today
one day to remember how i feel, what i like to do and
where i will love to be,
its not always about being desired, its about being remembered
that goes a long way to mend any heart
and for this, i take heed my own advice
and when that day comes, i think it will be more than healing.
it will be remembering how important you are as a person is to people
who love you, and people whom you love.
its the heart afraid of breaking
that never learns to dance,
its the dream afraid of waking
that never takes the chance.
its the one who wont be taken
who cannot seem to give,
and the soul afraid of dying
that never learns to live
and when your heart tires out, find somewhere to rest your soul.
and i just went over to Ting's to borrow a book to read
i foresee that i have to stay back tomorrow till late to finish my work
no biggie!
its funny that everyone has 24 hours but some of us feel that its not enough
we are all given the same amount, so the ability to manage that amount
is the ability also to get more things done within the same amount of time
as compared to others, or rather as compared to our individual's standards
and if you are already managing time effectively and still cannot get work done
then it could mean that you are not fully utilizing your resources to your advantage
and by then if still you are unable to finish what you want to within that amount of time,
you should consider self improvement, to stretch your capability to handle a certain
amount of workload given that limited amount of time!
*breathes in deep
honestly, you can touch your heart and tell me that i dont make sense
haha, cause i dont know which part of me conjure all that out of the air
i am talking about myself rather, even though i seem to use the word 'you' more than 'i'
i just dont want to seem like i am talking to myself
it seems that the root of fear is insecurity.
insecure in one's capability, insecure in one's identity
insecure in relationships, insecure in being
there is consistency with fear and insecurity
i am not really putting how i feel into words
but then again, i am self evaluating why i feel the way i do sometimes
i have to be more secure, learn to trust myself and others more.
these few days have really been trying,
today we decided the fate of the students by deciding which class they
will be placed in next year.
and its saddening really, however every system created by Man
is flawed, because Man is flawed.
we cannot expect a system to be foolproof and for no one to
fall through the cracks in our society, much less our education.
its meetings after meetings the entire day today, and it really
saps the energy out of me, physically and mentally
i wonder how can anyone still absorb anything, but its good training nevertheless
i think my attention span is stretched slightly more.
i foresee endless meetings for the next 2 weeks
its times like these that i want to be extremely selfish
not like i am not selfish already haha!
but rather i would like to do whatever i like, whenever i feel like
without considering anyone else, just for one day.
each time we consider how others might feel,
whether they might be bored, whether they might feel sick of
this or that particular activity
i might sound disgusting that i would like a day about me sometimes
but thats how i really feel today
one day to remember how i feel, what i like to do and
where i will love to be,
its not always about being desired, its about being remembered
that goes a long way to mend any heart
and for this, i take heed my own advice
and when that day comes, i think it will be more than healing.
it will be remembering how important you are as a person is to people
who love you, and people whom you love.
its the heart afraid of breaking
that never learns to dance,
its the dream afraid of waking
that never takes the chance.
its the one who wont be taken
who cannot seem to give,
and the soul afraid of dying
that never learns to live
and when your heart tires out, find somewhere to rest your soul.