Alone For The Holidays Still!
Well I was wiped off line for a while due to lack of Internet. Someone went home for the holidays and took their wireless modem with them. So with no more free Internet I had to sign up and pay for it! But if it comes back I am going to cancel! Another reason for not really writing is because of lack of topics. To make things short and sweet I have met a nice guy name Tanay or “Soney” he has been a great friend and we have started to hang out on a regular basis. As for Billy I have been feeling a little bit of the shaft. Exams ended and he went from being stressed about the exams to being stressed about the marks. So we didn’t exactly do too much in our 5 days together. He left for home on the 20th and I will not see him until the 28th. Now I don’t want to sound ridicules and make him choose between his family and me. But I am not going to lie. For the first time in my life I believe I am experiencing depression. I am lonely for my life back. I know he loves me but sometimes I don’t feel it and we have little fights because I get easily fusterated. I can’t let being alone get the best of me but it is the truth. I am alone right now and I have pretty much been alone since I got here. All I can do is pray that January brings a better tomorrow. If I could ask for anything for Christmas it would be to be at home to spend the holiday season with my friends and family, if I cant have that I would hope for a little more attention from you Billy.
Love you all and missing you tones!
Love you all and missing you tones!