Reopened
I was only off Facebook for a couple days. I figured it probably wouldn't be a smart business move on my part if I suddenly cut myself off from a majority of the contacts for whom I write music. Also, every once in awhile, someone totally random will find me on facebook and ask me to do an arrangement for them...
Speaking of music... I am totally bored with it. I'm not inspired to write for anyone including myself. I don't have any desire really to go out and seek performance opportunities. I don't have any desire to advertise myself at all or try to put myself out there. If people happen to contact me about such things, I'll usually do it...mostly out of necessity for money - and also to try and uphold my reputation as an "awesome arranger," and I still get some sort of thrill from the praise received from these endeavors... overall, though, the whole process seems like too much work.
I have no urge to practice or to try and create anything new. I find myself just playing the same old things over and over on the piano. I don't know. Maybe music isn't a challenge enough for me anymore? I know there are things on the piano that are terribly difficult that I could try to learn - though, a majority of the music written for piano is stuff that I simply *cannot* physically play. My right hand can barely reach an octave and this has been a physical hurdle that I've struggled with for a long time. Now, I know there are other people out there who have a similar hand size to me and have seemed to overcome this problem, but I figure, at this stage in my life, what would the point of trying to develop my hand any further? It's A LOT of work - what am I actually gaining? How does it make the world better? Well, it doesn't. I can "make the world better" at the level that I'm at. I've figured out what is satisfying for people.
Without the ability to play a majority of music and learn it quickly, I'm missing out on any chance of having a job as an accompanist - not that I would want to do it anyway as it's a whole lot of practice for very little pay.
So, do I go back to teaching piano? Oh, by the way, I ask because my job isn't giving me a whole lot of self fulfillment and since what I thought was going to give me lots of fulfillment is suddenly boring me, I'm at a loss for what to do. I *could* teach piano...but without the desire and passion for the instrument anymore, I feel like I'd be a bad influence on my students.
"Well, kid, here is what you need to do to get a good reaction from people. Figure that out, and you're set."
Mer.
Speaking of music... I am totally bored with it. I'm not inspired to write for anyone including myself. I don't have any desire really to go out and seek performance opportunities. I don't have any desire to advertise myself at all or try to put myself out there. If people happen to contact me about such things, I'll usually do it...mostly out of necessity for money - and also to try and uphold my reputation as an "awesome arranger," and I still get some sort of thrill from the praise received from these endeavors... overall, though, the whole process seems like too much work.
I have no urge to practice or to try and create anything new. I find myself just playing the same old things over and over on the piano. I don't know. Maybe music isn't a challenge enough for me anymore? I know there are things on the piano that are terribly difficult that I could try to learn - though, a majority of the music written for piano is stuff that I simply *cannot* physically play. My right hand can barely reach an octave and this has been a physical hurdle that I've struggled with for a long time. Now, I know there are other people out there who have a similar hand size to me and have seemed to overcome this problem, but I figure, at this stage in my life, what would the point of trying to develop my hand any further? It's A LOT of work - what am I actually gaining? How does it make the world better? Well, it doesn't. I can "make the world better" at the level that I'm at. I've figured out what is satisfying for people.
Without the ability to play a majority of music and learn it quickly, I'm missing out on any chance of having a job as an accompanist - not that I would want to do it anyway as it's a whole lot of practice for very little pay.
So, do I go back to teaching piano? Oh, by the way, I ask because my job isn't giving me a whole lot of self fulfillment and since what I thought was going to give me lots of fulfillment is suddenly boring me, I'm at a loss for what to do. I *could* teach piano...but without the desire and passion for the instrument anymore, I feel like I'd be a bad influence on my students.
"Well, kid, here is what you need to do to get a good reaction from people. Figure that out, and you're set."
Mer.