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Done. I hate being here.
Coming home was suppose to be fun. It was suppose to be a break from all the bullshit I have to put up with at school. I was suppose to be able to hang out with my friends, relax, and breathe.
And my parents have destroyed it all.
I am tired of being harped on about finding a fucking job. I am looking. I have gotten interviews. I am waiting to hear back. Not enough.
I am tired of being told what to do all of the time.
I am tired of having a curfew or being told when I can and can not go out.
I am tired of listening to my mother's stupid rants about life and herself and how i'm not measuring up to those expectations. Sorry mom, I'm not you.
I am SO FUCKING TIRED of them. Its more than I can take. I am nearly 20 years old. I have lived on my own for over 9 months. I set my own curfew, cleaned when I wanted to, had no one to answer to or be accountable for but myself. And they expect me to change all that overnight. And some of it I shouldn't have to change at all.
I hate how ignorant these people are. I hate being the oldest.
Quite honestly, I want to go back to school because at least there I can drive down to see my bestfriend when I want to. At least there I can set my own schedule. And at least there I don't get told every 20 minutes about how much of a failure I am or how my parents are so much better than I am.
I now remember why I was so anxious to get out of high school.
Coming home was suppose to be fun. It was suppose to be a break from all the bullshit I have to put up with at school. I was suppose to be able to hang out with my friends, relax, and breathe.
And my parents have destroyed it all.
I am tired of being harped on about finding a fucking job. I am looking. I have gotten interviews. I am waiting to hear back. Not enough.
I am tired of being told what to do all of the time.
I am tired of having a curfew or being told when I can and can not go out.
I am tired of listening to my mother's stupid rants about life and herself and how i'm not measuring up to those expectations. Sorry mom, I'm not you.
I am SO FUCKING TIRED of them. Its more than I can take. I am nearly 20 years old. I have lived on my own for over 9 months. I set my own curfew, cleaned when I wanted to, had no one to answer to or be accountable for but myself. And they expect me to change all that overnight. And some of it I shouldn't have to change at all.
I hate how ignorant these people are. I hate being the oldest.
Quite honestly, I want to go back to school because at least there I can drive down to see my bestfriend when I want to. At least there I can set my own schedule. And at least there I don't get told every 20 minutes about how much of a failure I am or how my parents are so much better than I am.
I now remember why I was so anxious to get out of high school.