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okay really tough right now... I feel first of all really bad because i ate a huge dinner... a sandwitch and lots of mayo on it which is really fattening! And I havent been to they gym in days... like... 4. and so im really feeling the need to purge. erugh... oaky now emotionaly. i feel like shit there too. The whole telling Jess... I did it. She said shes serious...I dont know. I like her I feel something for her but I dont know if its love. I need to talk to Claire. She can always help me out with these things. Erugh. I just got up to go and do it but... uh. help. theres loads of shit. got my marks and there what i expected... but still there horrible. im a fucking idiot. give me a gun. -sighs- okay what else oh mostly ive missed loads of school aready and im only a few days in. on top of that im bored, and it seems to be that really discusting things are getting me off recently. like ugly people? wtf is with that? ew... I need a mental whipe for my brain. uh. I need help and... Im bored out of my effing mind. honestly... someone i need company.
- love, jason.
(i want to die)
(or purge)
- love, jason.
(i want to die)
(or purge)