Don't know if it's a good or a bad thing to be analytic and able to look at things from different perspectives, and so be able to see the big picture... At least when you seem to be the only one to have that big picture about the situation :p

( Discovering the work-me )

Was prepairing for the usual non-eventful Valentines Day but someone decided differently and made it one of my best days for a long time.

:)

How can one have so little to say...?

Anxiety, calmness...? Is it melancholy or indifference? Disappointed but not surprised? Pissed off or just sad? Bitter? Relieved?

Possibly everything.

I was walking with the dogs and listening to music and I heard this

and I'm tired of this dark place
where hope dies and hope fades
I'm gonna leave these shadows behind

head into the bright lights
head into the bright lights
...

(Tom McRae - Bright Lights)
It was pouring rain and I was all wet but it gave me the best feeling for ages. I almost ( Read more... )

Not being able to live up to your own standards really sucks. And makes life complicated.

I still want that switch that you can use to turn off feelings. It's so frustrating to be sad and angry and jealous and what not. A wacko, still. Why can't I just be able to miraculously put everything behind me and act like a reasonable adult. Why?!

One day here I was thinking that it's been quite a long time since I've been happy. Really light-hearted. For some time I haven't felt those moments of overwhelming joy when you feel like at that moment there's not a single bad thing in your life ( Read more... )

I'm depressed, life's a piece of shit and I feel like a bad person. So, how's your day...

I'm doing it again. Just going forward without thinking too much or doing anything special... And not having too much to write about. Feels like I don't even know how to write anything even remotely meaningful anymore.

( So I guess I won't try )

Hmmm... It's been long ( Read more... )